well....i have come to grips that my blog has taken a huge back seat in my life. I love it - I have just lost the rhythm I had to blog consistently so I don't do it at all. I hope to maybe have a new years resolution to re-vamp and keep it updated. Hopefully. There is a lot on my mind, each thought could be a blog post of its own, but I will be be brief for the sake of sanity... so here you go.
** Today, I have an 11 month old boy. Really?!? I know that each mom comes to this point in their life and really wonders how it went by so fast, but seriously, the newborn cries, the days of the activity mats, nursing, and itty bitty baby snuggles are all a thing of the past. And while I miss those things so much, I have to celebrate right now, and look forward to the future. I have been blessed with the sweetest most active and excited little boy. He is on the brink of so much. I am so proud of him. He's battled each sickness, achieved each milestone with such determination, and i can't wait to see what this little person will grow to be. He has absolutely 100% no doubt been the greatest blessing for hubby and I. We are better because of him, and our home is a home because of him. As we prepare for his 1st birthday (rockstar party planning to come) I look forward to celebrating what he's been and what he will become. Isaak, thank you for being you! Your mommy and daddy couldn't have asked for anything more.
** Oh, you want to know about my trusty 10 pounds i've been carrying around. Oh there still here, not budging. I will say though, I have made a consistent effort over the past 6 weeks to walk consistently at least 6-8 miles a week. But it's done nothing. I even spent the better part of 3 weeks on 1300 calories a day. no results there either. Luckily I've learned that I enjoy the walking enough to continue that...the company has been great. But i'm in a funk, because I really don't know what to do to let go of this last bit of baby weight. It's driving me nuts.
** It looks like in mid-November we will be moving into our new home. It's going to be big and beautiful and we are beyond excited. We are still attempting to sell our current home, and we will list it to rent if nothing else comes through. Prayers appreciated.
** Hubby is in the middle of one of the most stressful times of his life. Working non-stop. I'm proud of him, of how much he does for others, and how hard he strives to provide for our family, and while I wish he was home more, I can't help but be thankful. I have to be. We are so blessed.
** Since my last post, God has done some amazing things in my life. He has shown me a lot about the importance of relationships, and the importance of recognizing seasons of life. There really are times for everything. He has brought some amazing women into my life, and the time spent with them has been so refreshing. I am learning to hold on to friendships instead of pushing them away once we get to a certain point. I am learning to be honest and real. I am learning that some friendships are part of a season, and that they come and go. I am learning that negativity is something that I am sinfully drawn to, and so I have to make an effort to not surround myself with negative people. Hubby and I have made a new pact. We are striving to surround ourselves with people who speak life, encouragement and build others up.
** A couple girlfriends and I have been meeting weekly and we are studying a Beth Moore book together. Last week was wonderful. I was on the verge of tears the entire time. They were exciting tears. I can't wait to see where God takes us over the next 2 months.
Well - that's all for now. I don't know when the next post will be. Hopefully sooner than later.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
All the minutes in the world
"just 5 more minutes"....
I think to myself as I hear my son through the baby monitor at 5:30am. He has discovered that he can now stand up on his own, and so now every moment that he's awake...that's what he has to do. When his little eyes first open in the morning, he quickly stands up, grabs a hold of the crib and makes any noise possible to get me in there. 5:30am people, that's stinkin early.
"just 5 more minutes"...
I mutter to myself as I try to scan over the last few emails in my inbox. I know that I can get about 15 minutes in if I put Isaak in the jumparoo and turn on baby einstein. He is in love with the puppets and they seem to capture his attention, only until he realizes that there's a ball in the other corner with his name on it. That's when the screaming starts. Come on sweetie ... just hold on for another minute, and I'll put the computer down.
"just 5 more minutes"...
i say it again, as we round the last 2 rows in Target.
diapers (check!)
wipes (check!)
new sleepers that actually fit (check!)
formula (check!)
desitin - the kind that actually comes out of the tube (check!)
puffs - only the banana kind (check!).
New mascara for mommy... (not happening) b/c we've now passed the threshhold of contentment in the red shopping cart. To the car we go, and maybe we'll hit the cosmetic isle and the clearance rack another day.
This morning as I heard little baby Isaak mumbles travel through the monitor into my ear at an all to early 5:30, I grunted, and made my way to his room.
Before I had time to mutter "just 5 more minutes" I was greeted by a grin so big there are no words to describe. He let go of the crib to reach for me and then realized that he was standing on his own, fear came over him for a brief moment but before he could cry I had already grabbed him up. I felt little hands go around my neck, and his feet started kicking in excitement as he realized it was breakfast time. I set him in his high chair and gave him his morning toast, and I sat on the couch for a minute to finish waking up.
I thought to myself about how many times I've repeated in my head something about just having a few more minutes for me. And then I realized… I've had it all wrong.
It's not about that. It’s not about me.
It’s about the fact that I have been chosen, hand-picked, honored to be a mommy to the most beautiful boy in the world. A boy who demands so much yet gives me so much in return.
The other night, we got ready for bathtime. I’m pretty sure he could feel my anxiousness as I set him in the tub. He probably knew that this was going to be a quick one. Hurry up. Wash hair, wash face, clean behind ears, clean the booty…a final rinse and we’re done. Then I noticed him as he pushed my arm out of the way to reach for his rubber duck with the police outfit on, that one is his favorite. He looked at me as if to say. “Hold on, mom, I want to play!” Straight in the mouth it went. He looked over at me and grinned. I took a minute and relaxed. I let my mind wander for a minute to what my life would be like if Isaak was taken from us. The most devastating, horrible thoughts filled my mind. I looked back at him and thanked God for my little miracle, and we played and played until he couldn’t play anymore. I put his jammies on and whispered in his ear.
“You can have all the minutes in the world!”
Oh that I never forget what a miracle you are Isaak. You are my world. I could not ask for anything more.
I think to myself as I hear my son through the baby monitor at 5:30am. He has discovered that he can now stand up on his own, and so now every moment that he's awake...that's what he has to do. When his little eyes first open in the morning, he quickly stands up, grabs a hold of the crib and makes any noise possible to get me in there. 5:30am people, that's stinkin early.
"just 5 more minutes"...
I mutter to myself as I try to scan over the last few emails in my inbox. I know that I can get about 15 minutes in if I put Isaak in the jumparoo and turn on baby einstein. He is in love with the puppets and they seem to capture his attention, only until he realizes that there's a ball in the other corner with his name on it. That's when the screaming starts. Come on sweetie ... just hold on for another minute, and I'll put the computer down.
"just 5 more minutes"...
i say it again, as we round the last 2 rows in Target.
diapers (check!)
wipes (check!)
new sleepers that actually fit (check!)
formula (check!)
desitin - the kind that actually comes out of the tube (check!)
puffs - only the banana kind (check!).
New mascara for mommy... (not happening) b/c we've now passed the threshhold of contentment in the red shopping cart. To the car we go, and maybe we'll hit the cosmetic isle and the clearance rack another day.
This morning as I heard little baby Isaak mumbles travel through the monitor into my ear at an all to early 5:30, I grunted, and made my way to his room.
Before I had time to mutter "just 5 more minutes" I was greeted by a grin so big there are no words to describe. He let go of the crib to reach for me and then realized that he was standing on his own, fear came over him for a brief moment but before he could cry I had already grabbed him up. I felt little hands go around my neck, and his feet started kicking in excitement as he realized it was breakfast time. I set him in his high chair and gave him his morning toast, and I sat on the couch for a minute to finish waking up.
I thought to myself about how many times I've repeated in my head something about just having a few more minutes for me. And then I realized… I've had it all wrong.
It's not about that. It’s not about me.
It’s about the fact that I have been chosen, hand-picked, honored to be a mommy to the most beautiful boy in the world. A boy who demands so much yet gives me so much in return.
The other night, we got ready for bathtime. I’m pretty sure he could feel my anxiousness as I set him in the tub. He probably knew that this was going to be a quick one. Hurry up. Wash hair, wash face, clean behind ears, clean the booty…a final rinse and we’re done. Then I noticed him as he pushed my arm out of the way to reach for his rubber duck with the police outfit on, that one is his favorite. He looked at me as if to say. “Hold on, mom, I want to play!” Straight in the mouth it went. He looked over at me and grinned. I took a minute and relaxed. I let my mind wander for a minute to what my life would be like if Isaak was taken from us. The most devastating, horrible thoughts filled my mind. I looked back at him and thanked God for my little miracle, and we played and played until he couldn’t play anymore. I put his jammies on and whispered in his ear.
“You can have all the minutes in the world!”
Oh that I never forget what a miracle you are Isaak. You are my world. I could not ask for anything more.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
on the edge
So I just put bubby down for a nap, the house is fairly clean, and there are no other daunting tasks screaming my name at the moment. I went to turn on the tv, when a ton of thoughts just flooded my mind so I decided to finally just lay down in bed and blog it all out instead.
Right now, I am at a very still place in my life. My routine is pretty steady, work is stable, Isaak has been very good lately *knock on wood*, Hubby's job is well, church has been great, we're scooting along financially.... there haven't been any big "bleeps" on our radar if that makes sense. But the "normalcy" has been making me think a lot!!! I have been able to identify several areas of my life where I'm just "getting by". I do just enough to get from day to day, but nothing to really "excel". I want that to change, but as weird as it sounds, I just can't seem to get past myself.
First and foremost, I have been in a very scary place in my walk with God.... just complacent. There are days that I feel like I'm on the edge of going deeper with Him, and then several days go by where it doesn't cross my mind. I can get so close in worship that I can feel it, but I still can't seem to just step out and go to a new place. I need to be in the Word more, and I need to be living as the person that God has called me to be. One of the sure signs that God is speaking and working in me is when I can't contain it. It pours out, most of the time in my writing. Which if any of you were fans of www.considermeblessed.blogspot.com then you know what I'm talking about. That blog has been dry for awhile now. That breaks my heart. One thing I have been considering a lot lately is starting a weekly coffee devotional time, an intimate time accountability, studying the Word, being REAL and of course laughing some too. But that requires commitment, vulnerability, and some other women too, and when I put it all together in my mind, it get's to be too much.... so I just shut it off. It's like I'm standing on the edge, and I can see my God in the water saying to me "Just jump in, the water's great".
Secondly, I have been extremely unhappy with what I see in the mirror. And those feelings are good and bad. Good because I think it's ok to want to be better, but bad because I think it is wrong to continually degrade and despise what God labels to be "fearfully and wonderfully made". I know i'm not the only one who hopes that each Monday will bring a new-found motivation to start the diet that will finally bring a change. But Monday after Monday comes, and I still find myself saying "diet starts next week". Again, the word here would be complacent, with a little bit of laziness mixed in. I am longing for someone to show up at my doorstep, grab a hold of me, shake me and say, "let's get moving, I'll help you, we can do it together". I don't know why I feel like it's impossible on my own, but right now it is. I need commitment, I need accountability, I need motivation. There is a lot of "I need-ing" going on here, but hey I'm just being honest. Ten pounds Christy, really....that's all....it's not that hard.
Lastly, I know that at the end of the day my most important titles are as a child of God, a wife and a mother. But outside of those, who has God created me to be?.... individually? As Christy? What about me sets me apart? I love to dabble in tons of different things, but I long for an interest, a talent, a hobby, something that I can invest my time in, something that brings joy, something that makes me happy??? I dunno, that could go a million different ways, but I've just been thinking about it a lot lately.
Long story short - I'm sort of frumpy, at a stand-still, and I'm doing a lot of searching and longing. And while I'm doing all of this, I really feel like I'm on the edge. I look over just far enough to see what things could be, and I even stick my foot in sometimes. But most of the time I just hold myself back. Lord, help me.
...to be continued
Right now, I am at a very still place in my life. My routine is pretty steady, work is stable, Isaak has been very good lately *knock on wood*, Hubby's job is well, church has been great, we're scooting along financially.... there haven't been any big "bleeps" on our radar if that makes sense. But the "normalcy" has been making me think a lot!!! I have been able to identify several areas of my life where I'm just "getting by". I do just enough to get from day to day, but nothing to really "excel". I want that to change, but as weird as it sounds, I just can't seem to get past myself.
First and foremost, I have been in a very scary place in my walk with God.... just complacent. There are days that I feel like I'm on the edge of going deeper with Him, and then several days go by where it doesn't cross my mind. I can get so close in worship that I can feel it, but I still can't seem to just step out and go to a new place. I need to be in the Word more, and I need to be living as the person that God has called me to be. One of the sure signs that God is speaking and working in me is when I can't contain it. It pours out, most of the time in my writing. Which if any of you were fans of www.considermeblessed.blogspot.com then you know what I'm talking about. That blog has been dry for awhile now. That breaks my heart. One thing I have been considering a lot lately is starting a weekly coffee devotional time, an intimate time accountability, studying the Word, being REAL and of course laughing some too. But that requires commitment, vulnerability, and some other women too, and when I put it all together in my mind, it get's to be too much.... so I just shut it off. It's like I'm standing on the edge, and I can see my God in the water saying to me "Just jump in, the water's great".
Secondly, I have been extremely unhappy with what I see in the mirror. And those feelings are good and bad. Good because I think it's ok to want to be better, but bad because I think it is wrong to continually degrade and despise what God labels to be "fearfully and wonderfully made". I know i'm not the only one who hopes that each Monday will bring a new-found motivation to start the diet that will finally bring a change. But Monday after Monday comes, and I still find myself saying "diet starts next week". Again, the word here would be complacent, with a little bit of laziness mixed in. I am longing for someone to show up at my doorstep, grab a hold of me, shake me and say, "let's get moving, I'll help you, we can do it together". I don't know why I feel like it's impossible on my own, but right now it is. I need commitment, I need accountability, I need motivation. There is a lot of "I need-ing" going on here, but hey I'm just being honest. Ten pounds Christy, really....that's all....it's not that hard.
Lastly, I know that at the end of the day my most important titles are as a child of God, a wife and a mother. But outside of those, who has God created me to be?.... individually? As Christy? What about me sets me apart? I love to dabble in tons of different things, but I long for an interest, a talent, a hobby, something that I can invest my time in, something that brings joy, something that makes me happy??? I dunno, that could go a million different ways, but I've just been thinking about it a lot lately.
Long story short - I'm sort of frumpy, at a stand-still, and I'm doing a lot of searching and longing. And while I'm doing all of this, I really feel like I'm on the edge. I look over just far enough to see what things could be, and I even stick my foot in sometimes. But most of the time I just hold myself back. Lord, help me.
...to be continued
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Dear Blog:
I know how neglected you must feel. I am truly sorry.
I wish I could say that I have been so super busy that I haven't had a moment to sit at a computer to update, but that would be a lie. The sad but real truth is that you've been temporarily replaced a slight obsession.... facebook. Ok maybe it's more than a slight obsession.
BUT, that doesn't mean I'm gone forever... honestly - I've been thinking about giving you amakeover for awhile now. So, I just wanted to thank you for all the good times so far, and let you know that I will return.
Sincerely,
Christy
So, I really do feel like I want to take this blog in a different direction. How do I create a blog that I can update in all areas of my life... Me, hubby, bubby, walk with God, family life, girl stuff, hobbies, photos, struggles etc??? I want a place where I can update everything, and maybe one day use it as a place to share my super creative creations. I don't know, it's all still coming together in my head, but hopefully you'll see a makeover soon. I need a catchy blog title though, any ideas??
Well I promise to be back soon! until then i'll leave you with a photo of my almost 9 month old!!!!! Yes, he really is almost 9 months old. I love this sweet boy, he has just rocked my world!
Love to you all.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Blueberries anyone??
Thought I would post on our most recent family adventure...
PS. I think Isaak's eyes look just like blueberries here! =) aww
Yesterday afternoon - Amick, Isaak and I went to go pick blueberries together. We had such a good time. We got 1/2 gallon, and last night I made a cobbler and then froze the rest. If anyone has any good blueberry recipes to share - please do!!
Enjoy the pics!
PS. I think Isaak's eyes look just like blueberries here! =) awwWednesday, June 10, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
20 days until....
the dress!!!!
To any sensible dieter out there - i know that the reality is there's not much that can happen in 3 weeks. But - I'm desperately hoping for a little miracle. So I decided yesterday that I'm going to blog my way through.
I will still post sweet baby Isaak updates - since he's the real reason this blog exists. But just bear with me for the next 20 days. I'm hoping this will be the beginning of my 3 month goal to get under my pre-baby weight. My son is 7 months old - come on' there's not many excuses left.
I thought about the whole not posting my weight, and just pounds lost - but what's the point?
i'm putting it out there anyway. Hiding it - won't make it disappear any faster. so here are my stats & goals.
pre-pregnancy weight: 132
final pregnancy weight: 165 (+33 pounds total)
weight @ 6 weeks pp: 148
current weight: 141 (looks live I've been losing approx 1lb per month by nursing)
goal weight by the wedding: 136
final goal weight by my birthday (9/5): 125
there you have it. anyone else in the same boat?
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To any sensible dieter out there - i know that the reality is there's not much that can happen in 3 weeks. But - I'm desperately hoping for a little miracle. So I decided yesterday that I'm going to blog my way through.
I will still post sweet baby Isaak updates - since he's the real reason this blog exists. But just bear with me for the next 20 days. I'm hoping this will be the beginning of my 3 month goal to get under my pre-baby weight. My son is 7 months old - come on' there's not many excuses left.
I thought about the whole not posting my weight, and just pounds lost - but what's the point?
i'm putting it out there anyway. Hiding it - won't make it disappear any faster. so here are my stats & goals.
pre-pregnancy weight: 132
final pregnancy weight: 165 (+33 pounds total)
weight @ 6 weeks pp: 148
current weight: 141 (looks live I've been losing approx 1lb per month by nursing)
goal weight by the wedding: 136
final goal weight by my birthday (9/5): 125
there you have it. anyone else in the same boat?
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Sunday, June 7, 2009
where do I even start...
I feel so out of touch. I haven't been able to put 2 coherant thoughts together in over a month it seems.
But in case I have any loyal readers out there just wondering if we're even alive - I figured I'd better at least attempt to post an update. That being said, this post will be jumbled with no rhyme or reason....and since coherancy is what I'm lacking at the moment - I will separate my jumbled thoughts with cute little asterisks. *** =) Enjoy.
*** My son is seven months old!?!? Does that sound weird to anyone else? He'll be 1 before i know it. The past couple months have been a little rough because he's been fighting a few little bugs going around - but let me just say that he is a trooper. He refuses to miss a beat. I can look at him, snotty little nose and all - and he absolutely brightens my day. He brings absolute joy to our lives. He has mastered "sitting up". We came back from Oklahoma and the next day he decided he was ready. He sits there like he's been doing it for months, just playing with this toy or that, mumbling little Isaak words, and absorbing everything for all its worth. His innocence, his fresh view of life, his funny little faces, they all remind Amick and I at how easy it should be to truly enjoy life.
Each day he gets better and better with foods. He LOVES LOVES bananas. And if I need him to eat something, just mix it with bananas and he's good to go! He also eats squash, sweet potatos, green beans, and the good ol trusty rice cereal. We will be moving to 2 meals a day pretty soon. He DOES NOT like turkey and gravy!!!! He DOES like refried beans from mexican restaurants. Grammie is waiting for me to give him peas. I HATE peas... but I have to get past that and ensure that my son eats well now, so he'll eat good later! peas schmeas.
*** Our trip to Oklahoma was great. Isaak was an angel on the flight, and an angel while we were there. He got to meet a lot of new family - and he was happy to visit new places....especially the aquarium. We were glad to get home to our own bed, but really enjoyed the relaxing time away from a busy routine.
*** My brother is getting married in less than a month! Since he moved away - things haven't been the same. I genuinely miss him, and wish I would have taken advantage of the time I had with him when he was here. I am so proud of him, of his goals, of his amazing fiance, and pray that blessings continue to follow them as they begin their new lives together.
***I am in the wedding - and of course "the dress" saga begins yet again. In case you don't remember the last dress... see here:
http://considermeblessed.blogspot.com/2008/03/dress.html
well this time I have a different problem... the dress didn't shrink. The buyer of the dress bought it a size smaller than she should have in hopes that motivation would appear and 10 pounds would disappear by the time 6/27 arrives. Obviously that's impossible since there's no way I can lose 3lbs per week and be nursing at the same time. But I'm going to do my best starting tomorrow. Prayers are appreciated, and advice is welcomed, and I will post updates each week on my measely progress. Right now I'd just like to lose 5. We'll see. If all else fails....I'll be sure that I am extremely tan, because we all know the saying: (say it with me ladies) "Tan fat is better than white fat". Good news is the dress at least zipped. BUT that does not mean it looked good by any means. My mother & sister-in-laws can vouch for that (Even though they wouldn't because they're way too nice).
***Speaking of nursing, I've made it 7 months!!!
(Now - for all your expert breastfeeding gurus out there who made it past a year and some even to 18 months - CONGRATULTATIONS.)
but....back to me. My goal was 6 months. I am happy to say that I surpassed my goal - and without much difficulty or complaints. However, with a growing boy, a growing boy with teeth, a growing boy with teeth who is also a wiggle worm, a growing boy with teeth who is also a wiggle worm with a mom who is working part time....and having supply issues. my patience is running thin. I can deal with most everything *EXCEPT* the biting & low supply. So I'm beginning to look at my other options, and really pray about the next couple months. Any advice or encouragement in this area is welcomed!!
Well I see the infamous red lights on the baby monitor which means blogging time is over. I hope to post some pictures, as soon as hubby emails me some!
Love you all - oh, and keep your updates coming. I may not be posting, but I read my favorite blogs every morning!
But in case I have any loyal readers out there just wondering if we're even alive - I figured I'd better at least attempt to post an update. That being said, this post will be jumbled with no rhyme or reason....and since coherancy is what I'm lacking at the moment - I will separate my jumbled thoughts with cute little asterisks. *** =) Enjoy.
*** My son is seven months old!?!? Does that sound weird to anyone else? He'll be 1 before i know it. The past couple months have been a little rough because he's been fighting a few little bugs going around - but let me just say that he is a trooper. He refuses to miss a beat. I can look at him, snotty little nose and all - and he absolutely brightens my day. He brings absolute joy to our lives. He has mastered "sitting up". We came back from Oklahoma and the next day he decided he was ready. He sits there like he's been doing it for months, just playing with this toy or that, mumbling little Isaak words, and absorbing everything for all its worth. His innocence, his fresh view of life, his funny little faces, they all remind Amick and I at how easy it should be to truly enjoy life.
Each day he gets better and better with foods. He LOVES LOVES bananas. And if I need him to eat something, just mix it with bananas and he's good to go! He also eats squash, sweet potatos, green beans, and the good ol trusty rice cereal. We will be moving to 2 meals a day pretty soon. He DOES NOT like turkey and gravy!!!! He DOES like refried beans from mexican restaurants. Grammie is waiting for me to give him peas. I HATE peas... but I have to get past that and ensure that my son eats well now, so he'll eat good later! peas schmeas.
*** Our trip to Oklahoma was great. Isaak was an angel on the flight, and an angel while we were there. He got to meet a lot of new family - and he was happy to visit new places....especially the aquarium. We were glad to get home to our own bed, but really enjoyed the relaxing time away from a busy routine.
*** My brother is getting married in less than a month! Since he moved away - things haven't been the same. I genuinely miss him, and wish I would have taken advantage of the time I had with him when he was here. I am so proud of him, of his goals, of his amazing fiance, and pray that blessings continue to follow them as they begin their new lives together.
***I am in the wedding - and of course "the dress" saga begins yet again. In case you don't remember the last dress... see here:
http://considermeblessed.blogspot.com/2008/03/dress.html
well this time I have a different problem... the dress didn't shrink. The buyer of the dress bought it a size smaller than she should have in hopes that motivation would appear and 10 pounds would disappear by the time 6/27 arrives. Obviously that's impossible since there's no way I can lose 3lbs per week and be nursing at the same time. But I'm going to do my best starting tomorrow. Prayers are appreciated, and advice is welcomed, and I will post updates each week on my measely progress. Right now I'd just like to lose 5. We'll see. If all else fails....I'll be sure that I am extremely tan, because we all know the saying: (say it with me ladies) "Tan fat is better than white fat". Good news is the dress at least zipped. BUT that does not mean it looked good by any means. My mother & sister-in-laws can vouch for that (Even though they wouldn't because they're way too nice).
***Speaking of nursing, I've made it 7 months!!!
(Now - for all your expert breastfeeding gurus out there who made it past a year and some even to 18 months - CONGRATULTATIONS.)
but....back to me. My goal was 6 months. I am happy to say that I surpassed my goal - and without much difficulty or complaints. However, with a growing boy, a growing boy with teeth, a growing boy with teeth who is also a wiggle worm, a growing boy with teeth who is also a wiggle worm with a mom who is working part time....and having supply issues. my patience is running thin. I can deal with most everything *EXCEPT* the biting & low supply. So I'm beginning to look at my other options, and really pray about the next couple months. Any advice or encouragement in this area is welcomed!!
Well I see the infamous red lights on the baby monitor which means blogging time is over. I hope to post some pictures, as soon as hubby emails me some!
Love you all - oh, and keep your updates coming. I may not be posting, but I read my favorite blogs every morning!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
1st vacation trip with baby T - 3 days
Well on Wednesday morning (early stinkin' early I might add) - mommy daddy and baby will be boarding a plane and headed to Oklahoma to visit Amick's family. I'm pretty much stressed to max. While the trip itself I am looking forward to - the anticipation/planning/preparation is getting to me. This will be our first big trip with Isaak, and I want to make sure everything runs smoothly.
In light of that - I thought I'd check in with all the mommies in blog-land and load up on traveling advice. The topic being - "traveling with an infant". Feel free to post your thoughts, tips, must haves, don't brings, and anything else you can think of.
I'm taking notes....
In light of that - I thought I'd check in with all the mommies in blog-land and load up on traveling advice. The topic being - "traveling with an infant". Feel free to post your thoughts, tips, must haves, don't brings, and anything else you can think of.
I'm taking notes....
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Zooooooo Woo hoo
This past Saturday – Isaak had his first trip to the zoo. Unfortunately mommy & daddy picked the hottest day to go – but all in all, we had a good time. Isaak wore the perfect zoo shirt, and of course the hat and sunglasses completed the ensemble. He got to meet Larry the Lion which was his favorite animal…the whole afternoon he kept growling just like him. Raaawr! He also met Ben, a 15 year old gorilla.
We got to feed the animals at the petting zoo – and see all sorts of neat things. About 2 hours into it, we all were hot and tired, but Isaak was a trooper and stayed in such a happy mood despite the heat! Enjoy some pictures below!
He is finally ALL better – and I am so glad to see my happy healthy boy again. And since this is my blog, I’m going to brag for a little bit. If you don’t like the bragging part, scroll down to the pictures. – Isaak is absolutely the best baby…… I could not have asked for anything more. He has such a good temperament, and unless he’s hungry or tired – he’s got a smile on his face. He’s slept through the night since he was two months old!!! He cut his first two teeth and didn’t miss a beat. I’ve nursed him since birth and he’s done so well, bottle or not. He loves his paci, but he doesn’t have to have it. When I lay him in his crib – he goes to sleep – no fight, no fuss. He loves riding in the car now, and he loves his mommy and daddy more than anything. I attribute it to nothing but a blessing from God. Because obviously – I am on this journey of motherhood day by day. OK – enough of the bragging. =)
We tried sweet potatoes last night – haha, Isaak didn’t know what to think. We are just approaching the feeding a little bit at a time. Isaak is not a huge fan, so we’re hoping he gradually get into a routine.
Well – enjoy the zoo photos!
Ready for the zoo!
Mommy and me
with the birds
Me and Daddy
What kind of animal is that
tired and hot!!
OK i'm done
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
poor little nose =(
Well – bubby has a sinus infection – poor thing. I thought he was getting better and then Saturday he started coughing and it just kept getting worse. So we went to the doctor yesterday and he’s on antibiotics to clear it up. I’ll be glad when my little guy feels better and I’m sure he’ll be glad when he can breathe normally again. It’s so sad. I haven’t been able to nurse consistently for almost a week, so the pump has had a lot of extra TLC. Can’t wait until things are back to normal.
On a good & fun note, we did take Isaak to the beach on Saturday. He did so good – and we had a lot of fun. I will say going to the beach will never be easy again – haha. It is definitely an outing that takes a lot of patience and preparation. But as much as we love it, we’ll just make it work!
I’ll leave you with some beach pictures of daddy & baby! (PS. There is a very good reason why there are no mommy pictures – haha. Mommy has 10 pounds to go before there will be any beach pictures ANYWHERE)
On a good & fun note, we did take Isaak to the beach on Saturday. He did so good – and we had a lot of fun. I will say going to the beach will never be easy again – haha. It is definitely an outing that takes a lot of patience and preparation. But as much as we love it, we’ll just make it work!
I’ll leave you with some beach pictures of daddy & baby! (PS. There is a very good reason why there are no mommy pictures – haha. Mommy has 10 pounds to go before there will be any beach pictures ANYWHERE)
Monday, April 27, 2009
Round 2 + fever this time
Well - my sweet boy is not feeling well again. It started Friday night when I heard screaming through the monitor at 3:45 AM. I knew it was out of the ordinary for him, and sure enough when I went in his room, I found a sad little boy with snot everywhere. Last night was the worst - I was up and down with him all night and he had a fever of almost 102. Tylenol did the trick, but the fever has been fluctuating since. He's not really interested in eating - which concerns me because Isaak loves to eat.
All that to say - we are taking a trip to the doctor this afternoon, I'm pretty sure they are going to tell me the usual "Tylenol every four hours, saline drops and nasal aspirator for 7-10 days" - but because of the fever I want to rule out an ear infection.
Isaak is trying so hard to be happy - he still can't help but smile, and no amount of snot will keep him from jumping in his new found love the jumparoo!
Please pray for my little boy - I want him to feel better soon.
All that to say - we are taking a trip to the doctor this afternoon, I'm pretty sure they are going to tell me the usual "Tylenol every four hours, saline drops and nasal aspirator for 7-10 days" - but because of the fever I want to rule out an ear infection.
Isaak is trying so hard to be happy - he still can't help but smile, and no amount of snot will keep him from jumping in his new found love the jumparoo!
Please pray for my little boy - I want him to feel better soon.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Update & Family Prayer Request
Isaak said to tell everyone that he’s sorry there hasn’t been many updates lately. His mom & dad have been crazy busy!
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….So for a short re-cap, here’s what has been happening over the past 3 weeks. (A LOT). I’m also throwing a prayer request out into blog land as well!
My little boy has two teeth!! They came out of nowhere two weeks ago. I wouldn’t have even known, but he was putting my finger in his mouth – and when he chomped down, I felt that little tooth sticking out!! He was so good. No fussiness or fever or anything! Tooth #2 came a couple days ago. He’s getting so old.
On Sunday, I put Isaak in his bumbo, and fixed him some rice cereal – FOR THE FIRST TIME! We got it on video and it was so funny. At first he had no clue what was going on, but he ate about half of it, and spit the other half out. We’ve tried it once a day since – and he’s progressively doing better.
Isaak had his first Easter – it was pretty low key, but he got to hang out with his cousin Taylor, grammy and pops. He had fun!
He is getting more and more fun. He officially jumps in his jumparoo now, and he just brings so much joy to our lives.
When I get can get daddy to download all of the pictures off of his camera, I will post some for you to enjoy. For now I’ll leave you with a photo from dedication day!!! =)
In other family news, I post this so that you guys can pray with us, and for us, as we’ve been pretty stressed. We’ve decided to put our current house on the market and build one a couple miles down the road. As exciting and fun as it will be – it also brings along a whole lot of planning and stress. The main concern is our current house selling. We face a rough market, but we serve a big God – that’s what I keep telling myself. So please pray with us, that first and foremost God’s will is done, and following that the selling process is quick and successful! I will post more exciting stuff about the new house as we get closer.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Sweet Boy
Here is a picture of Isaak on Saturday morning, he still has his sleepy eyes. He woke up so cheerful...he must have known it was his 5 month birthday.
I love him.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
so much happening
...where do I even start?
In 2 weeks I will have a 5 month old, hold on........ let me say that again - IN 2 WEEKS I WILL HAVE A 5 MONTH OLD!
Wow.
I was walking through the mall tonight, just me and Isaak, and he was being his normal 7pm fussy bug self - so I was holding him and pushing the stroller. My cell rang, so I held Isaak on my left hip, kept the stroller steady with my right knee and reached down to get my phone. I'm talking on the phone and then Isaak spits up. So I'm holding the phone with my shoulder, keeping the stroller going, with Isaak on my knee I reach down for a burp cloth and clean it up. I hung the phone up and had an "ah-ha" moment. I am a mother. How in the world did I just manage that whole scenario without skipping a beat??? I AM TRULY A MOTHER. It's true when they say that for every baby that is born, so is a mother. It's the first "title" that I've ever been given that requires so much, but is so rewarding at the same time. It's a title that I am completely honored to have. My heart is so full.
Which makes me think, next Sunday Isaak will be dedicated. What a normal routine right. I mean most of us were dedicated, christened, baptized - whatever you wanna call it as infants. But when I really think about it, it's such a glorious thing. What a wonderful opportunity for Amick and I to remind ourselves that Isaak truly belongs to the Lord, and we have merely been blessed to raise him up to be the man that God has planned for him to be.
He had his 4 month shots last week, and he was such a trooper. He barely cried, and he got to sport 2 snoopy bandaids for a day. His doctor said he was "perfect" =), weighing in at 16 pounds, & 25.5 inches long. She also told us that she thinks we have an early teether - she felt swelling on his bottom gums and then showed me the two "white lines" where his bottom teeth are coming in. I'M NOT READY FOR TEETH. After teeth comes lunch boxes, and then it's graduation.... haha, it's just crazy how fast time really does fly by.
Well - I'm going to kiss my sweet boy good night. Lord thank you for my little angel and the pure joy that he brings me each day. Thank you also for my big angel too (hubby) and the joy that he brings me each day =). I love my perfect family.
In 2 weeks I will have a 5 month old, hold on........ let me say that again - IN 2 WEEKS I WILL HAVE A 5 MONTH OLD!
Wow.
I was walking through the mall tonight, just me and Isaak, and he was being his normal 7pm fussy bug self - so I was holding him and pushing the stroller. My cell rang, so I held Isaak on my left hip, kept the stroller steady with my right knee and reached down to get my phone. I'm talking on the phone and then Isaak spits up. So I'm holding the phone with my shoulder, keeping the stroller going, with Isaak on my knee I reach down for a burp cloth and clean it up. I hung the phone up and had an "ah-ha" moment. I am a mother. How in the world did I just manage that whole scenario without skipping a beat??? I AM TRULY A MOTHER. It's true when they say that for every baby that is born, so is a mother. It's the first "title" that I've ever been given that requires so much, but is so rewarding at the same time. It's a title that I am completely honored to have. My heart is so full.
Which makes me think, next Sunday Isaak will be dedicated. What a normal routine right. I mean most of us were dedicated, christened, baptized - whatever you wanna call it as infants. But when I really think about it, it's such a glorious thing. What a wonderful opportunity for Amick and I to remind ourselves that Isaak truly belongs to the Lord, and we have merely been blessed to raise him up to be the man that God has planned for him to be.
He had his 4 month shots last week, and he was such a trooper. He barely cried, and he got to sport 2 snoopy bandaids for a day. His doctor said he was "perfect" =), weighing in at 16 pounds, & 25.5 inches long. She also told us that she thinks we have an early teether - she felt swelling on his bottom gums and then showed me the two "white lines" where his bottom teeth are coming in. I'M NOT READY FOR TEETH. After teeth comes lunch boxes, and then it's graduation.... haha, it's just crazy how fast time really does fly by.
Well - I'm going to kiss my sweet boy good night. Lord thank you for my little angel and the pure joy that he brings me each day. Thank you also for my big angel too (hubby) and the joy that he brings me each day =). I love my perfect family.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Note From the Babysitter
Our friend Veronica (Paisley's Mom) is watching Isaak this morning, and apparently Isaak decided to bless her with a gift. See Below:
"Ok soooo….we’ve already ate, changed clothes, had to dunk a bootie in the sink and did a load of laundry with dirty jammies in it!!!!! Haha Your little man is quite the pooper!!! Haha I heard him poop and went to change his diaper and IT WAS EVERYWHERE!!!! It was so bad I had to take a picture of his jammies….."
"but then we got it all under control and had a photo shoot!!!.................."
"Ok soooo….we’ve already ate, changed clothes, had to dunk a bootie in the sink and did a load of laundry with dirty jammies in it!!!!! Haha Your little man is quite the pooper!!! Haha I heard him poop and went to change his diaper and IT WAS EVERYWHERE!!!! It was so bad I had to take a picture of his jammies….."
"but then we got it all under control and had a photo shoot!!!.................."
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
baby colds are NO joke
I'm still alive... whew!
Rewind to last Thursday.... 11:30 I hear Isaak screaming through the monitor. I knew something was wrong because he rarely wakes up during the night. I went in there to find him completely stuffed up with the worst congestion imaginable. He had a fever, and just looked so miserable. That began a very long night. I was up with him at 1am, 3am, 4am and 6am - trying to help him calm down because he would get so frustrated not being able to breathe.
Friday & Saturday are just a blur, he could hardly eat because his nose was clogged, and he absolutely did not want me to put him down.
Well its now Tuesday, and I can finally say that he is doing better. His nose actually started to run today which I am thankful for because I'm hoping that means everything is starting to come out. My heart has just hurt from him. I cried because I hated seeing him so miserable - I would have taken it on in a second if I could. I wanted so much to be able to make him feel better but there was not much I could do.
After trying everything I knew to do & following the doctors instructions - here is my breakdown on the remedies, and I what I thought helped, and what didn't! (This is not an absolute, just my experience, some of these might have worked for you, that's awesome!!)
Saline drops - "Little noses" I've almost gone through a bottle, and I really don't know if it helped much. I know that it annoyed Isaak each time I tried to put them in his nose. But if it kept his nose from getting dried out, then it was worth it.
Nasal Aspirator - STUPID! Can I just say that this thing did not work for me at all. Some people swear by it, saying that it gets so much out.... well if that's the case then my boy has stubborn snot - because it wasn't going to budge. And the bulb just made him mad as fire, which stuffed him up even more. I gave up on that by day 3.
Elevated Crib - Yes! We put towels under one side of his mattress to keep his elevated. I think it really helped him sleep better once he learned to breathe out of his mouth.
Cool Mist Humidifier - Yea - the humidity seemed to keep his nose/mouth moist - and seemed to calm him down a bit. We'd even sit in the bathroom with the shower on and just breathe in the warm air.
Baby Vapor Rub - Nah... it made more of a mess than anything else, it smelled good to me, but I don't think Isaak could tell a difference.
Baby Tylenol! - Yes a life saver. Kept his little fever down, and just seemed to make him feel better. Every 4 hours!
Wow!!! Who knew there were so many remedies. I just wanted a quick fix - but the doc said to prepare to deal with it for 7 - 10 days. We're headed into day 7 so I think it should be all up hill from here.
To all the mommies out there who have survived baby colds/flu bugs - kudos to you - I truly thing it's just as exhausting for the mom as it is the baby.
On a positive note, here are some pictures of my bubby when he was feeling well!!
LOVE HIM
Rewind to last Thursday.... 11:30 I hear Isaak screaming through the monitor. I knew something was wrong because he rarely wakes up during the night. I went in there to find him completely stuffed up with the worst congestion imaginable. He had a fever, and just looked so miserable. That began a very long night. I was up with him at 1am, 3am, 4am and 6am - trying to help him calm down because he would get so frustrated not being able to breathe.
Friday & Saturday are just a blur, he could hardly eat because his nose was clogged, and he absolutely did not want me to put him down.
Well its now Tuesday, and I can finally say that he is doing better. His nose actually started to run today which I am thankful for because I'm hoping that means everything is starting to come out. My heart has just hurt from him. I cried because I hated seeing him so miserable - I would have taken it on in a second if I could. I wanted so much to be able to make him feel better but there was not much I could do.
After trying everything I knew to do & following the doctors instructions - here is my breakdown on the remedies, and I what I thought helped, and what didn't! (This is not an absolute, just my experience, some of these might have worked for you, that's awesome!!)
Saline drops - "Little noses" I've almost gone through a bottle, and I really don't know if it helped much. I know that it annoyed Isaak each time I tried to put them in his nose. But if it kept his nose from getting dried out, then it was worth it.
Nasal Aspirator - STUPID! Can I just say that this thing did not work for me at all. Some people swear by it, saying that it gets so much out.... well if that's the case then my boy has stubborn snot - because it wasn't going to budge. And the bulb just made him mad as fire, which stuffed him up even more. I gave up on that by day 3.
Elevated Crib - Yes! We put towels under one side of his mattress to keep his elevated. I think it really helped him sleep better once he learned to breathe out of his mouth.
Cool Mist Humidifier - Yea - the humidity seemed to keep his nose/mouth moist - and seemed to calm him down a bit. We'd even sit in the bathroom with the shower on and just breathe in the warm air.
Baby Vapor Rub - Nah... it made more of a mess than anything else, it smelled good to me, but I don't think Isaak could tell a difference.
Baby Tylenol! - Yes a life saver. Kept his little fever down, and just seemed to make him feel better. Every 4 hours!
Wow!!! Who knew there were so many remedies. I just wanted a quick fix - but the doc said to prepare to deal with it for 7 - 10 days. We're headed into day 7 so I think it should be all up hill from here.
To all the mommies out there who have survived baby colds/flu bugs - kudos to you - I truly thing it's just as exhausting for the mom as it is the baby.
On a positive note, here are some pictures of my bubby when he was feeling well!!
LOVE HIM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Happy Birthday
....well 4 month birthday that is! My little boy is 4 months old today. WOW.
He is now grabbing onto things for dear life i.e. his rattle, my hair (ouch), my shirt when he's eating, his toy on his car seat... pretty much anything you put in front of him.
Yesterday, I took him to Nikki's, from there to the hospital, from the hospital to my house, and did it all without one tear in the car....those of you who know my on going car trouble with Isaak know that this is a big deal... I wonder, just wonder, if maybe, oooooooooh maybe if he is going to slowly grow out of his ever living hatred for riding in the car. If he did - wow I would be an insanely happy mommy! Lord Jesus - I pray peace and love and quiet-ness over my baby boy when he rides in the car. I'll let you know how the next few days go.
* Those of you mommies out there who are blessed to have the babies that LOVE car rides and even fall asleep~!! take a moment and be thankful. * =)
Isaak has moved into a new noise making stage, we are calling him a grunter - he grunts - all the time, he has a happy grunt, a sad grunt and a MADDDD grunt - he even grunts instead of laughing. HAHAHA.
So, to end this birthday post, I will fill you in on what Isaak's best friends are doing these days
- Kylie (aka girlfriend # 1) Isaak gets to hang out with her Monday through Friday, she teaches him all sorts of things, how to play, make new noises, she shares with him, her toys, her favorite things. She just got her first tooth and was a trooper through it all. And, b/c Kylie will be turning one very soon, Isaak gets to go to his very first birthday party! YAY.
- Taylor (Isaak's little cuzzy) Miss Taylor is absorbing everything lately with her beautiful big bright eyes, if she's not snoozing she's taking in everything and loves looking at anything bright. Isaak can't wait til they get older so he can protect her and teach her all sorts of fun things....
- Paisley (aka girlfriend #2) Paisley just got over a sicky bug last week, so Isaak hasn't seen her lately - but he misses her blue blue eyes. Paisley is busy busy, rolling over, saying things that babies say, and will be sitting up very soon. She will be having a 5 month birthday very soon.
Yes - that's right Isaak knows all the ladies, I can't wait until Elijah is here, Jonah gets a little bigger, and some more baby boys come this way so Isaak will have some boys to get dirty with.... hehe. He misses his cousin Bryten and wishes that he lived closer.
I'll get hubby to post some pictures tomorrow, some VERY VERY cute ones in his big boy outfits. Thanks to Veronica I have some adorable clothes for him to wear in the upcoming months!
YAY for babies, babies everywhere.
He is now grabbing onto things for dear life i.e. his rattle, my hair (ouch), my shirt when he's eating, his toy on his car seat... pretty much anything you put in front of him.
Yesterday, I took him to Nikki's, from there to the hospital, from the hospital to my house, and did it all without one tear in the car....those of you who know my on going car trouble with Isaak know that this is a big deal... I wonder, just wonder, if maybe, oooooooooh maybe if he is going to slowly grow out of his ever living hatred for riding in the car. If he did - wow I would be an insanely happy mommy! Lord Jesus - I pray peace and love and quiet-ness over my baby boy when he rides in the car. I'll let you know how the next few days go.
* Those of you mommies out there who are blessed to have the babies that LOVE car rides and even fall asleep~!! take a moment and be thankful. * =)
Isaak has moved into a new noise making stage, we are calling him a grunter - he grunts - all the time, he has a happy grunt, a sad grunt and a MADDDD grunt - he even grunts instead of laughing. HAHAHA.
So, to end this birthday post, I will fill you in on what Isaak's best friends are doing these days
- Kylie (aka girlfriend # 1) Isaak gets to hang out with her Monday through Friday, she teaches him all sorts of things, how to play, make new noises, she shares with him, her toys, her favorite things. She just got her first tooth and was a trooper through it all. And, b/c Kylie will be turning one very soon, Isaak gets to go to his very first birthday party! YAY.
- Taylor (Isaak's little cuzzy) Miss Taylor is absorbing everything lately with her beautiful big bright eyes, if she's not snoozing she's taking in everything and loves looking at anything bright. Isaak can't wait til they get older so he can protect her and teach her all sorts of fun things....
- Paisley (aka girlfriend #2) Paisley just got over a sicky bug last week, so Isaak hasn't seen her lately - but he misses her blue blue eyes. Paisley is busy busy, rolling over, saying things that babies say, and will be sitting up very soon. She will be having a 5 month birthday very soon.
Yes - that's right Isaak knows all the ladies, I can't wait until Elijah is here, Jonah gets a little bigger, and some more baby boys come this way so Isaak will have some boys to get dirty with.... hehe. He misses his cousin Bryten and wishes that he lived closer.
I'll get hubby to post some pictures tomorrow, some VERY VERY cute ones in his big boy outfits. Thanks to Veronica I have some adorable clothes for him to wear in the upcoming months!
YAY for babies, babies everywhere.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
sleepy bug
Isaak is busy growing lately. He's been sleeping a lot more over the past week. I noticed it over the weekend when we had family in town. It seemed like every time I turned around he was snoozing. I totally think some mornings when I go in his room to wake him up he's bigger than the night before. My sweet boy is just growing growing!!
Is it normal to have baby fever again so soon after having a baby?? I know it can't be good.....seriously - Isaak is not even 4 months old yet. But I miss pregnancy, I miss little teeny newborn snuggles, and when I see my friends experiencing it, my heart just fills up for them because aside from the exhaustion - it was such a joyous time for me. I guess I'm a little relieved to feel that way, because I was worried. So many people told me "you think you want 4 kids, just wait until you have the first one, it will all change". Well - so far my desire is still for a big family. Now - I just need to hold out until Isaak is at least one. (hopefully - hee hee)
Amick's sisters were in town this past weekend and my three nephews too. Amick and I smiled as we got to see a small glimpse into what our future holds with kids running around, toys on the floor..... and the lives of children totally dependent on our care. I watched as my nephews sat at the counter - waiting patiently for their waffles to be done. Their little eyes just lit up at the thought of a waffle - all for them - made just the way they like it. Seriously - I can't wait. I know each stage of a child's life comes with the good and bad, but each day I try my hardest to focus on the good.... life is so much better that way.
Thank you Lord for each day that goes by that you protect my little Isaak - thank you for his good health, his beautiful smile, his new sounds, his round tummy, soft hands and his love so big that it brings tears to our eyes. Thank you for sending him to us to watch over - thank you for his beautiful & unique personality, for his strength already and for the joy that he brings us each day. I could not have asked for more.
10 things I love about my baby - well all babies =)
- his jammies with feet in them
- the way he smells after his bath - with his baby magic lotion on
- the indentions that the pacifier makes on his face when he spits it out
- his attempt at a laugh - it sounds more like a grunt - but we know it's a laugh
- his morning face and his sleepy eyes
- his dimply little bottom
- the naps we take together
- he loves sleep as much as I do
- his sad face - as pitiful as it is
- he loves his mommy
Is it normal to have baby fever again so soon after having a baby?? I know it can't be good.....seriously - Isaak is not even 4 months old yet. But I miss pregnancy, I miss little teeny newborn snuggles, and when I see my friends experiencing it, my heart just fills up for them because aside from the exhaustion - it was such a joyous time for me. I guess I'm a little relieved to feel that way, because I was worried. So many people told me "you think you want 4 kids, just wait until you have the first one, it will all change". Well - so far my desire is still for a big family. Now - I just need to hold out until Isaak is at least one. (hopefully - hee hee)
Amick's sisters were in town this past weekend and my three nephews too. Amick and I smiled as we got to see a small glimpse into what our future holds with kids running around, toys on the floor..... and the lives of children totally dependent on our care. I watched as my nephews sat at the counter - waiting patiently for their waffles to be done. Their little eyes just lit up at the thought of a waffle - all for them - made just the way they like it. Seriously - I can't wait. I know each stage of a child's life comes with the good and bad, but each day I try my hardest to focus on the good.... life is so much better that way.
Thank you Lord for each day that goes by that you protect my little Isaak - thank you for his good health, his beautiful smile, his new sounds, his round tummy, soft hands and his love so big that it brings tears to our eyes. Thank you for sending him to us to watch over - thank you for his beautiful & unique personality, for his strength already and for the joy that he brings us each day. I could not have asked for more.
10 things I love about my baby - well all babies =)
- his jammies with feet in them
- the way he smells after his bath - with his baby magic lotion on
- the indentions that the pacifier makes on his face when he spits it out
- his attempt at a laugh - it sounds more like a grunt - but we know it's a laugh
- his morning face and his sleepy eyes
- his dimply little bottom
- the naps we take together
- he loves sleep as much as I do
- his sad face - as pitiful as it is
- he loves his mommy
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
don't tell =)
..........But for the past couple days been sneaking in LOTS of lovey time with Isaak. Normally the minute he falls asleep for his afternoon nap, I lay him in his crib and start checking things off my to-do list. Well yesterday he napped in mommy's arms. We leaned back in the recliner together and slept for an hour and a half. I woke up before he did - he was so beautiful - just sleeping.
It was one of the best naps I've had in awhile.
Today we did the same thing except the nap was shorter! =(
I won't be able to this everyday - because there is so much to be done, but my cuddly time with Isaak is exactly what I needed to get through the week.
It was just a reminder to me, of how truly fast these sweet little babies grow. I can't imagine that there will be a day when he won't want me to hold him close......so I need to stop, slow down, lean back and snuggle with him - the dishes can wait!
There will ALWAYS be to-do lists, and they will get longer...... but these precious times will only happen once. I am determined to soak it up.......every minute!
It was one of the best naps I've had in awhile.
Today we did the same thing except the nap was shorter! =(
I won't be able to this everyday - because there is so much to be done, but my cuddly time with Isaak is exactly what I needed to get through the week.
It was just a reminder to me, of how truly fast these sweet little babies grow. I can't imagine that there will be a day when he won't want me to hold him close......so I need to stop, slow down, lean back and snuggle with him - the dishes can wait!
There will ALWAYS be to-do lists, and they will get longer...... but these precious times will only happen once. I am determined to soak it up.......every minute!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Grandparents are the best
As of now Isaak has absolutely no reason not to be the happiest boy on earth. He has been loved on more this past week than some babies see in a year, haha.
The fun started last week when Isaak had some quality one on one time with his Mamaw (hubby's mom)........then he just spent a couple days with his Pa & Nana (my Dad and Michelle), and this evening he got to hang out with his Grammie and Pops (my Mom and Russell). My baby should be on cloud nine! Well, actually he is, right now he is snoozing away - and I'm hoping for a good night's sleep so that I can rest up!
He has rolled over a few more times since my last post, it's amazing to watch him learn new things every day! He has a little rattle now that he can grasp on to, and I just laugh watching him shake it. Occasionally he hits himself in the head - but he's a tough guy!
Have I mentioned lately that I love him? I mean seriously, how can you not love this face!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Outdated Blog = Busy Mommy
I know - I know ..... it's been forever. Isaak is 3 months old!
All I can say is that I'm loving every minute of being a mommy! It seems like every day he is doing new things, and so far I've enjoyed this stage the most. Of course I loved my cuddly sleepy baby when he was 3 weeks old, but his personality & movements just captivate me now. Here is my top ten list..... the new things he has done since my list update:
10. He loves sucking on his hands, and in no particular place, just whatever he can fit in his mouth. Sometimes he gets so in to it that he gags himself. I laugh because you'd think he would avoid doing doing that. He puts himself to sleep this way. Each night I lay him down, and he immediately puts the hand in his mouth and sucks away!
9. I find him captivated my the most random things, the ceiling fan, a lamp, anything bright or flashing... I can tell he's definitely concentrating more.
8. He can see from a distance. I can now be a across the room and he can see me....I made him smile from across the couch the other day!
7. He has re-kindled a love with his swing. In the middle of the day it makes it easy for me to get things done. I don't know how long it will last - but for now it's GREAT!
6. He watches TV (uh-oh is right). It just made realize how careful daddy & I have to be about what we watch....even this little - it's a touchy issue with me.
5. He's learning day by day to make new noises, and each new one he makes almost surprises him..... kind of like he didn't realize he could do it.
4. He smiles more than he cries..... for now. =)
3. He doesn't scream AS much in his car seat. Don't get me wrong, he still hates riding in the car, but not as much. haha, do you like my optimistic outlook.
2. He loves his daddy's beard
1. I saved the best for last... last night, I put him to bed. I came in his room this morning, and he was at the opposite end of the crib, and had ROLLED OVER!!!!! what.... I wasn't ready for that. My little boy is growing up!
Here are a few 3 month photos...... this little boy has changed my world! (for the better of course)
All I can say is that I'm loving every minute of being a mommy! It seems like every day he is doing new things, and so far I've enjoyed this stage the most. Of course I loved my cuddly sleepy baby when he was 3 weeks old, but his personality & movements just captivate me now. Here is my top ten list..... the new things he has done since my list update:
10. He loves sucking on his hands, and in no particular place, just whatever he can fit in his mouth. Sometimes he gets so in to it that he gags himself. I laugh because you'd think he would avoid doing doing that. He puts himself to sleep this way. Each night I lay him down, and he immediately puts the hand in his mouth and sucks away!
9. I find him captivated my the most random things, the ceiling fan, a lamp, anything bright or flashing... I can tell he's definitely concentrating more.
8. He can see from a distance. I can now be a across the room and he can see me....I made him smile from across the couch the other day!
7. He has re-kindled a love with his swing. In the middle of the day it makes it easy for me to get things done. I don't know how long it will last - but for now it's GREAT!
6. He watches TV (uh-oh is right). It just made realize how careful daddy & I have to be about what we watch....even this little - it's a touchy issue with me.
5. He's learning day by day to make new noises, and each new one he makes almost surprises him..... kind of like he didn't realize he could do it.
4. He smiles more than he cries..... for now. =)
3. He doesn't scream AS much in his car seat. Don't get me wrong, he still hates riding in the car, but not as much. haha, do you like my optimistic outlook.
2. He loves his daddy's beard
1. I saved the best for last... last night, I put him to bed. I came in his room this morning, and he was at the opposite end of the crib, and had ROLLED OVER!!!!! what.... I wasn't ready for that. My little boy is growing up!
Here are a few 3 month photos...... this little boy has changed my world! (for the better of course)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
11 weeks
OK, I don't know if you're ready for this, but here are some pictures of the cutest boy in the entire world.
Seriously.......it doesn't get any cuter than this. I love him.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
random
I was thinking this morning about what life was like before Isaak was here.
Sure - life was simpler, we could get up and go whenever we wanted, sleep for hours on end, and pretty much make decisions as we went along. But now, there is so much more purpose to each decision we make. And we love it, we love facing each new day and the decisions & challenges we face as being parents.
I also remembered how closely I examined other parents when they dealt with their children. I was so quick to judge - even if I didn't voice it, oh, I thought it. Thoughts would go through my mind of how I would do it differently, and I would be in disbelief if I saw a parent do something that contradicted my own thoughts or heaven forbid go against the parenting bible "What to Expect".
I laugh, because now I see it all now completely different. I truly regret those thoughts, because, when I became a mother - all the guidelines and "have to's" that I set as stone went out the window. It's not up to me to judge anyone's decisions, only those that Amick and I make as parents. The same goes for every other family.
See, that's the beautiful part. WE are Isaak's parents - NO ONE ELSE! We will parent to the best of our abilities and with God's guidance we hope to raise the best children we can.
So if WTE says don't give a pacifier until 8 weeks, and I gave it to Isaak at 2. WHO CARES.
If I hold my son too much and it's considered "spoiled" WHO CARES.
If I work a few hours each day and am considered a bad mom, WHO CARES.
If the parenting magazine says feed every 3 hours, and I feed when he's hungry - WHO CARES.
At the end of the day, Isaak is the most loved little boy I know, he has the best mommy & daddy in the world, we aren't perfect, but we do the best we can.
Advice is a beautiful and helpful thing, but when the advice turns into judgment - problems arise. I guess that's the point I was getting at.
haha, random rant for a Saturday morning.
Sure - life was simpler, we could get up and go whenever we wanted, sleep for hours on end, and pretty much make decisions as we went along. But now, there is so much more purpose to each decision we make. And we love it, we love facing each new day and the decisions & challenges we face as being parents.
I also remembered how closely I examined other parents when they dealt with their children. I was so quick to judge - even if I didn't voice it, oh, I thought it. Thoughts would go through my mind of how I would do it differently, and I would be in disbelief if I saw a parent do something that contradicted my own thoughts or heaven forbid go against the parenting bible "What to Expect".
I laugh, because now I see it all now completely different. I truly regret those thoughts, because, when I became a mother - all the guidelines and "have to's" that I set as stone went out the window. It's not up to me to judge anyone's decisions, only those that Amick and I make as parents. The same goes for every other family.
See, that's the beautiful part. WE are Isaak's parents - NO ONE ELSE! We will parent to the best of our abilities and with God's guidance we hope to raise the best children we can.
So if WTE says don't give a pacifier until 8 weeks, and I gave it to Isaak at 2. WHO CARES.
If I hold my son too much and it's considered "spoiled" WHO CARES.
If I work a few hours each day and am considered a bad mom, WHO CARES.
If the parenting magazine says feed every 3 hours, and I feed when he's hungry - WHO CARES.
At the end of the day, Isaak is the most loved little boy I know, he has the best mommy & daddy in the world, we aren't perfect, but we do the best we can.
Advice is a beautiful and helpful thing, but when the advice turns into judgment - problems arise. I guess that's the point I was getting at.
haha, random rant for a Saturday morning.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
10 week pictures
As you can tell he has a new obsession with his fingers, I can't hardly keep his hand away from his mouth! I loved all these pictures so I couldn't do just one.
I love my growing boy.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
10 weeks
Are we really in double digits? I think it's officially time to stop counting in weeks......i'm afraid if I keep doing it, he'll be 3 years old, and I'll still be referring to him has 156 weeks old. So let me just say it then - my son is 2 1/2 months old!! Whoa.
Can I just say that the past two weeks have been the most amazing for me and Isaak. I have really bonded with him in a way that I can't describe. When he was first born I fell in love with the life that God had given us. But I think I'm now falling in love with who Isaak is. His personality, His smile, his expressions, his movements - all of it just continues to develop, and it is such a miracle to watch. I just can't believe that I have the opportunity to be his mommy, I get to be the one to experience it all (Daddy too of course).
A lot has been happening, my little boy smiles all the time, he is so much more alert and I've found that he is transitioning into a rather content baby. Good for me. Good for everyone. I think I can also finally say that I think Isaak has finally settled into sleeping through the night. He's been making 8-9 hour stretches the past two weeks. YAY.
He got his 2 month shots yesterday (sad experience for Isaak and mommy). I told Amick that I realized Isaak had not felt pain yet, because until yesterday I had NEVER heard him cry like that. My eyes filled up with tears as well. He did so good though, I was proud of him. He has three snoopy bandaids on his legs. Sweet little boy.
I am just really happy with everything right now, I have a great son, an amazing husband, a good home, wonderful church, great friends and family, A NEW NIECE, ...and the list goes on. Life is Good. God is good!
Speaking of a new niece, precious Taylor Lynn was born a week ago Monday, and the whole day was wonderful. She had a relatively smooth & quick labor, and Taylor is happy and healthy. It was such an amazing experience watching my brother become a father. He has done so good, and I know that he & Tonya will be fabulous parents.
That's all for now. I know - I know, I need to post a picture. =)
Can I just say that the past two weeks have been the most amazing for me and Isaak. I have really bonded with him in a way that I can't describe. When he was first born I fell in love with the life that God had given us. But I think I'm now falling in love with who Isaak is. His personality, His smile, his expressions, his movements - all of it just continues to develop, and it is such a miracle to watch. I just can't believe that I have the opportunity to be his mommy, I get to be the one to experience it all (Daddy too of course).
A lot has been happening, my little boy smiles all the time, he is so much more alert and I've found that he is transitioning into a rather content baby. Good for me. Good for everyone. I think I can also finally say that I think Isaak has finally settled into sleeping through the night. He's been making 8-9 hour stretches the past two weeks. YAY.
He got his 2 month shots yesterday (sad experience for Isaak and mommy). I told Amick that I realized Isaak had not felt pain yet, because until yesterday I had NEVER heard him cry like that. My eyes filled up with tears as well. He did so good though, I was proud of him. He has three snoopy bandaids on his legs. Sweet little boy.
I am just really happy with everything right now, I have a great son, an amazing husband, a good home, wonderful church, great friends and family, A NEW NIECE, ...and the list goes on. Life is Good. God is good!
Speaking of a new niece, precious Taylor Lynn was born a week ago Monday, and the whole day was wonderful. She had a relatively smooth & quick labor, and Taylor is happy and healthy. It was such an amazing experience watching my brother become a father. He has done so good, and I know that he & Tonya will be fabulous parents.
That's all for now. I know - I know, I need to post a picture. =)
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
8 weeks
I noticed that I didnt get a 7 week picture.......I guess the holidays are to blame....but that's ok I have an excuse....see Isaak had a hard job this Christmas being Santa... as you can see he was sleepy after delivering all those presents.
Anyway, I am convinced that week 7 was a growth spurt for Mr. Isaak. He did ok during the day but he was constantly eating, and was up at least twice each night. I couldn't figure it out because he had done so well the week before. Then we left last Tuesday to spend Christmas with both of our families. And......to mommy and daddy's surprise he put on his best behavior and slept through each night that we were away??? I had prepared myself for the exact opposite. It was a nice treat though. We've been home a few nights and he's been a little inconsistent but I think he's just adjusting to being back at home...and not being held 24/7.
My little Isaak was loved so much last week. It blessed me so much to see everyone just love on him. I mean, I'm his mommy so of course my love for him is indescribable, but to see my dad (his Pa), my grandma (his Mimi), Amick's mom (his MaMaw) and the rest of our families just melt with him meant so much to me. It meant so much in fact that the trip back home was quite depressing. Sunday was rough too. I miss my family so much, and that time was so special to me (this year especially). Having a son has changed everything I know, and my family is just one thing that has remained constant. I didn't realize how much it affected me until I had to leave. At least I have my mom here, she is my breath of fresh air, just by calling to check on Isaak, or just when she stops by just to see how much he's grown. It's another reminder that I'm not alone. I couldn't imagine raising a family somewhere completely away from all my family........ i couldn't do it.
Ok, enough of the sad stuff. GOOD NEWS, our sweet boy has started smiling. We are getting a few good smiles each day, and I never knew how rewarding it would be. The other night we went to Hardees because Amick has become obsessed with their thickburgers....anyway, we were smiling and talking in that high pitched baby talk, and Isaak grinned soooooo big his eyes lit up. We both started laughing, and realized how silly we must have looked in the restaurant. Oh well, it made my day.
More good news, it looks like Isaak will get to meet his first girl cousin in a week. Baby Taylor will arrive most likely next Monday, I cannot wait. I am so proud of Tonya and Danny... I can't explain how excited I am for them and how impatient I am to finally meet her. Please pray that everything goes well!!!!!!!! YAY for babies.
Well I will leave you with his 8 week picture. (AHHH, my baby is almost 2 months old!!!!!!!!!!!)
Love you.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
6 weeks
Well - my baby boy is 6 weeks old today.......
So here's his 4, 5, & 6 week picture......is he a growing boy or what. I love him!
Isaak is waving hello to everyone who is keeping up with mommy, daddy & baby!
So here's his 4, 5, & 6 week picture......is he a growing boy or what. I love him!
Isaak is waving hello to everyone who is keeping up with mommy, daddy & baby!
We love you all!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
spoke too soon
So, I've been a zombie for the past 24 hours.
Last night, Mommy and Isaak started the "bedtime" routine around 9:30, and it was nearly 3:00am before Isaak was in bed asleep. What in the world?!?!?! And then he was up again at 6:30am.
So I'm really not sure if he just didn't feel good, if I ate something weird, or if he was just in the mood to pull an all nighter. Who knows, but I was not prepared for that. See, I can handle two hour stretches of sleep, that's what a mommy of a newborn does - but I was literally up until 3, trying everything possible to get him to sleep.... fed him, rocked him, held him, changed him, sang to him, read to him, fed him again, laid him down, let him cry, rocked him some more, fed him once more and the list goes on.......
I made it through the day on a lousy cup of coffee..... and I'm just hoping we have a better night tonight.
Being a mom is not for the faint of heart....let me just say. These past 5 weeks have no doubt been the hardest of my life. I am stretched daily to new places. But all in all, I am thankful. Two reasons come to mind.
1) Through each sleepless night and fussy day - more and more selfishness just oozes out of me.... when I think I have no selfishness left - we face a night like last night.... and I am kindly reminded once again.
2) My son loves me. Last night he would NOT stop crying - there was nothing else I could do.
It was 2:00 am...I needed a breath of fresh air, so I laid him down, and went outside for a few minutes. I came back in and he was screaming, I reached down and picked him up, he was sweaty from crying and red from the frustration, and as I laid him over my shoulder he immediately stopped crying..... and there, in the silence, I just felt his heart beating so fast.....but then his little body relaxed, and he suddenly felt safe and comforted. At the end of it all - it was ME he wanted....not food, not a new diaper, not a song or anything else, he wanted his mommy. There in his room, I just held him, I hugged him tight and tears just rolled down my face for what seemed like forever, I told him how much I loved him, and that I would always be there for him no matter what.....
I will tell you right now there is nothing else in the entire world that compares to that feeling..... the feeling of knowing that in the eyes of your child YOU are everything. Some may see it as overwhelming - to me, I see it as an honor, and last night Isaak and I had a moment of pure love, and shortly after he finally fell asleep. What an amazing honor.
This post just took on a mind of its own, but to sum it up,
we had a rough night, but I fell more in love with Isaak.
Being a mom is rough but rewarding.
I hope tonight is better.
Last night, Mommy and Isaak started the "bedtime" routine around 9:30, and it was nearly 3:00am before Isaak was in bed asleep. What in the world?!?!?! And then he was up again at 6:30am.
So I'm really not sure if he just didn't feel good, if I ate something weird, or if he was just in the mood to pull an all nighter. Who knows, but I was not prepared for that. See, I can handle two hour stretches of sleep, that's what a mommy of a newborn does - but I was literally up until 3, trying everything possible to get him to sleep.... fed him, rocked him, held him, changed him, sang to him, read to him, fed him again, laid him down, let him cry, rocked him some more, fed him once more and the list goes on.......
I made it through the day on a lousy cup of coffee..... and I'm just hoping we have a better night tonight.
Being a mom is not for the faint of heart....let me just say. These past 5 weeks have no doubt been the hardest of my life. I am stretched daily to new places. But all in all, I am thankful. Two reasons come to mind.
1) Through each sleepless night and fussy day - more and more selfishness just oozes out of me.... when I think I have no selfishness left - we face a night like last night.... and I am kindly reminded once again.
2) My son loves me. Last night he would NOT stop crying - there was nothing else I could do.
It was 2:00 am...I needed a breath of fresh air, so I laid him down, and went outside for a few minutes. I came back in and he was screaming, I reached down and picked him up, he was sweaty from crying and red from the frustration, and as I laid him over my shoulder he immediately stopped crying..... and there, in the silence, I just felt his heart beating so fast.....but then his little body relaxed, and he suddenly felt safe and comforted. At the end of it all - it was ME he wanted....not food, not a new diaper, not a song or anything else, he wanted his mommy. There in his room, I just held him, I hugged him tight and tears just rolled down my face for what seemed like forever, I told him how much I loved him, and that I would always be there for him no matter what.....
I will tell you right now there is nothing else in the entire world that compares to that feeling..... the feeling of knowing that in the eyes of your child YOU are everything. Some may see it as overwhelming - to me, I see it as an honor, and last night Isaak and I had a moment of pure love, and shortly after he finally fell asleep. What an amazing honor.
This post just took on a mind of its own, but to sum it up,
we had a rough night, but I fell more in love with Isaak.
Being a mom is rough but rewarding.
I hope tonight is better.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
5 weeks
Wow!
Each week that passes I realize that I'm nearing the end of "newborn" time with my sweet Isaak. I know that entering the land of "infant" time will bring tons and tons of excitement and joy, but I will so miss my sleepy cuddly teeny little boy.
Well - three big things happened this past week. I'm so proud of my little boy.
1. Isaak took his first bottle - like a champ I might add...
He didn't even hesitate and he drank the whole thing. I had daddy give him the bottle, and he really enjoyed it. While it was a little weird seeing him take food from someone other than me, it was a slight relief to know that I can look forward to a bottle here and there when we're out or when Amick and I want to leave him for a date night.
2. The past two nights Isaak has slept through the night!!!!!!!!
Monday night I put him down at 10 and he slept until 6:30. Last night he went down at 11 and slept until almost 8. I really am in awe because for some reason I thought it would be months before I experienced that.... but I'm not complaining at all, I am glad, and blessed, and I hope that it is a trend that continues. I guess now I just wonder when I'll get a full night's sleep. I still wake up frantic and check on him at least twice during the night, I need to make sure he's ok and breathing. Moms out there.... does that ever go away????
3. Isaak wore his first pair of shoes and jeans yesterday!
Finally - something other than socks and cotton pants. Daddy put some new jeans and shoes on him, and they fit perfectly. (well the jeans were a bit big, but we made them work) He looked so adorable and almost too grown up. I look forward to some fun adorable outfits to come.
I'll post a 5 week picture when he wakes up
although...I'm sure you're enjoying my husband's photoshop skills (see photo below)...and just to clarify, no - we're not really giving our son steaming hot tea!!!! I felt the need to clarify in case anyone checks my blog and didn't realize my hubby doctored the photo a bit. HAHA.
(His facial expression and hand guesture was 100% real, that's what cracked us up)
Well after next week - I'm offially out of post partum land. And I'm guessing I'll have no more excuse to complain about "not being myself". It gets better each week.... but I still don't feel 100% capable that I can really handle motherhood, "wife"hood, and my home all at the same time. Maybe next Tuesday I'll just wake up with a pot holder in hand ready to conquer the world with my amazing multi-tasking skills. Probably not - but it's a nice thought.
Until next time!!!
Each week that passes I realize that I'm nearing the end of "newborn" time with my sweet Isaak. I know that entering the land of "infant" time will bring tons and tons of excitement and joy, but I will so miss my sleepy cuddly teeny little boy.
Well - three big things happened this past week. I'm so proud of my little boy.
1. Isaak took his first bottle - like a champ I might add...
He didn't even hesitate and he drank the whole thing. I had daddy give him the bottle, and he really enjoyed it. While it was a little weird seeing him take food from someone other than me, it was a slight relief to know that I can look forward to a bottle here and there when we're out or when Amick and I want to leave him for a date night.
2. The past two nights Isaak has slept through the night!!!!!!!!
Monday night I put him down at 10 and he slept until 6:30. Last night he went down at 11 and slept until almost 8. I really am in awe because for some reason I thought it would be months before I experienced that.... but I'm not complaining at all, I am glad, and blessed, and I hope that it is a trend that continues. I guess now I just wonder when I'll get a full night's sleep. I still wake up frantic and check on him at least twice during the night, I need to make sure he's ok and breathing. Moms out there.... does that ever go away????
3. Isaak wore his first pair of shoes and jeans yesterday!
Finally - something other than socks and cotton pants. Daddy put some new jeans and shoes on him, and they fit perfectly. (well the jeans were a bit big, but we made them work) He looked so adorable and almost too grown up. I look forward to some fun adorable outfits to come.
I'll post a 5 week picture when he wakes up
although...I'm sure you're enjoying my husband's photoshop skills (see photo below)...and just to clarify, no - we're not really giving our son steaming hot tea!!!! I felt the need to clarify in case anyone checks my blog and didn't realize my hubby doctored the photo a bit. HAHA.
(His facial expression and hand guesture was 100% real, that's what cracked us up)
Well after next week - I'm offially out of post partum land. And I'm guessing I'll have no more excuse to complain about "not being myself". It gets better each week.... but I still don't feel 100% capable that I can really handle motherhood, "wife"hood, and my home all at the same time. Maybe next Tuesday I'll just wake up with a pot holder in hand ready to conquer the world with my amazing multi-tasking skills. Probably not - but it's a nice thought.
Until next time!!!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Happy 1 month birthday Isaak!
One month ago today, my sweet Isaak came into this world...... So many people keep telling me "enjoy the time now, it will go by so fast". I completely understand that now, because I don't know where the last month went, it seems like yesterday I was checking into the hospital with a heart and mind full of anticipation - waiting to see my son for the first time.... and now I pick him up and he is noticibly heavier, and his eyes open wide as he attempts to learn so much.
I just love him so much.
He was a fussy boy today, he refused to take a nap longer than 10 minutes, and I'd feed him, change him, hold him, rock him, sing to him, give him Mylicon, yet nothing seemed to hit the spot. I guess maybe he just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. All I know is he has a tired mommy today because of it...I am ready for bed. He went to bed a little earlier tonight, around 10:00, so here's to hoping that he sleeps until 4. We'll see.
I'll leave you with his 4 week picture.......see how much he's grown!!! I can't believe it.
PS. are you proud of me......i've done good lately with updates!!!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
4 weeks and 3 years
first, our baby boy is pretty much grown up....he's 4 weeks old, ahhhh!!! I guess I better get the lunchbox ready, as Veronica and I say.
Lately I've been seeing more of Isaak's grayish-blue eyes than his little eyelids. He's focusing more on objects and when he's full and content, he loves to look around and move his arms all over the place. Each day I can tell that he's learning more and more about everything around him as well as what his little arms and legs can do.
He's such a tall little man, but still skinny as ever....all of his jeans and shoes swallow him whole. I can't wait until he can wear his adorable church outfits.
Isaak slept from 11 to 6am last night! Holy Cow! I woke up in a panic thinking that the baby monitor was broken and he had cried all night and I just didn't hear him. But no, it was fine, and so was he. I'm so proud of my good little sleeper.
Secondly, today is our three year anniversary (hubby and I). It's crazy to think how fast and slow the time has gone by. We've enjoyed the road so far, and look forward to many more years together. This time 3 years ago, hubby worked in pest control, I was job searching, and we lived as happy as ever in our 600 square foot apartment, man that place was small! My how things change. I wouldn't trade where we are now for ANYTHING. Happy Anniversary Amick, I love you more than ever!
Here's a picture of my 2 favorite guys, my big man and my little man (thanks Heather for taking the photos).... Amick is such a good daddy
I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL CHRISTMAS.... Isaak gets to meet so much family!!!!
Friday, November 28, 2008
3 weeks already?!?!
Several things have happened over the past week that let me know my sweet Isaak is indeed growing.....
*We took out the little head cushion in his car seat... his head now fits perfectly.
*I've already had to put away several of his newborn sleepers, my little boy has such long legs, most sleepers don't give him the room to stretch out.
*At his 2 week well check up he made it over the 8 pound mark......yay for my growing little boy.
I can tell you just about every little minute detail of Isaak's life.... I mean we're together every moment of the day....but if you were to ask me anything about the outside world... I couldn't tell you. Sometimes Amick comes home from work, and my thought is "get us out of this house!!!!" I never realized how depressing it can be just sitting at home all day. I guess I was so used to being out and about all the time, this is a huge adjustment. Well - this new life is a HUGE adjustment. I'm waiting for the day that I wake up and just accept the fact that exhaustion will just be a part of life. I need to just deal with it, and move on - otherwise the next few months are going to pass me by! =) What's that quote?? "You can sleep when you're dead!" Maybe I should put that as my new blog header. *Side note* I am proud of my little boy, he's slept for a few 5 hour stretches the past few nights. Of course I don't, because I get up twice and make sure he's still breathing - but regardless, I'm super proud of him.
It's still weird referring to myself as a mother or Isaak as my son, but weird or not, it's the truth. And I'm not one to candy coat things, and i've loved this blog because I can just say things how they are, so the reality is - motherhood is a lot harder than I thought!
(now is the time that all the other moms chime in and say "I told you so".)
It's allowed me to see a lot of things that I took for granted, before Isaak was here -
- a good night's sleep
- time with hubby without interruption
- updating a blog in one sitting... haha
- trying on clothes in a dressing room
- my size 6 pants (tears fill up my eyes when I think about this)
- did I mention a good night's sleep?
But exhaustion and all other complaints aside, my sweet Isaak is nothing short of a miracle, my miracle....the miracle that hubby and I prayed earnestly for....and there is nothing else in this entire world that I could imagine pouring this much of my life into. When I see his little yawn, watch him get so excited when it's time to eat, see how he immediately calms down when I lay him on my chest - I re-live the moment when he arrived into this world, and thank God again and again for choosing to give him to us. Each day - we fall in love with him all over again.
Things I can't wait for:
- Isaak's first Christmas
- His first smile
- When he can wear his first pair of jeans and shoes (he's still too teeny)
Oh, and many many thanks to my great hubby for his photo skills and for updating photos =)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Photos from the weekend.
while laying in bed with daddy on saturday morning, he snapped these shots of our beautiful boy!!
update: the camera is a Canon XTI Rebel, but the photos have a little of Amick's touch on them, being he is a graphic designer and works with photos all day long
Friday, November 21, 2008
New Camera=New Pics....YAY!
Here are some from the other night. There will definitely be more to come.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
2 weeks already????
Tomorrow Isaak will be 2 weeks old! Whoa.
Today is the first day that I woke up and actually felt slightly rested (keyword here is slightly). Isaak went to bed last night at 10:30. He woke up at 2:00 and ate. He and I fell asleep on the couch and both slept until just before 6. I fed him again and put him back in his crib and he slept until 8. I actually straightened my hair today and put on some make up. Go me!
No doubt, motherhood is an adjustment, and I'm 100% convinced that selfishness CANNOT co-exist with a newborn. Which is a good thing, because my many attempts to be "Selfless" have failed my entire life!! I will say that it's been the the most amazing most tiring 2 weeks of my life, but I'd lay my life down again and again for my sweet Isaak. (A nap here and there is still nice though.)
I'm still a little nervous leaving the house by myself... I love when Amick is home because he helps so much.... but with the help of friends I'm determined to get out once each day this week!
I'm hoping to update more often as things become more routine.... and I'm not really sure which direction to take this blog??? I guess it should transition from a pregnancy blog into a baby blog for Isaak.... and should I keep Joy Unspeakable??? Ahh, I'm not sure, any ideas?
Hubby is going through the pictures today that we've taken of Isaak, and when he gets done, I'll post some here.... along with my last and final belly pic...just for the record.
Speaking of belly pics. I miss being pregnant. Am I weird? No, I don't miss the swelling, back pain, and indigestion, but I miss everything else. I miss his movements inside me, I miss the weekly dr. visits, I miss the excuse to have a belly haha... i'd do it all again in a heartbeat!!! Which I'm relieved to hear myself say that, because we still want 4 kids.
Well - I'll aim for weekly updates, that's fair right???
Before I go, here are 10 amazing things:
1. Our little Isaak smiles when he sleeps....call it gas, call it growth, call it what you want, when you see his little face, there's no doubt it's a smile.... after all his name does mean "he who laughs"
2. His fingers are so long, everyone makes the "piano" comment, but daddy is holding out strong for the guitar.
3. I love watching Amick rush in each afternoon to see Isaak, you'd think he hadn't seen him in a week.
4. Church providing meals for two weeks is an absolute Godsend.
5. I pick him up and his crying immediately stops.....there's no better feeling than being a mom.
6. He's growing just like he should. He already weighs 7lbs 5 oz.
7. We love waiting to see what color his eyes will be.
8. Isaak has so many grandparents....he will be the most loved little boy, by his mamaw, papa, grammy, pops, nana & pa.... holidays are going to be one big partay.
9. Babies smell so good....well - once you change their diaper.
10. Sweet Isaak is a constant reminder to us of God's faithfulness.
Today is the first day that I woke up and actually felt slightly rested (keyword here is slightly). Isaak went to bed last night at 10:30. He woke up at 2:00 and ate. He and I fell asleep on the couch and both slept until just before 6. I fed him again and put him back in his crib and he slept until 8. I actually straightened my hair today and put on some make up. Go me!
No doubt, motherhood is an adjustment, and I'm 100% convinced that selfishness CANNOT co-exist with a newborn. Which is a good thing, because my many attempts to be "Selfless" have failed my entire life!! I will say that it's been the the most amazing most tiring 2 weeks of my life, but I'd lay my life down again and again for my sweet Isaak. (A nap here and there is still nice though.)
I'm still a little nervous leaving the house by myself... I love when Amick is home because he helps so much.... but with the help of friends I'm determined to get out once each day this week!
I'm hoping to update more often as things become more routine.... and I'm not really sure which direction to take this blog??? I guess it should transition from a pregnancy blog into a baby blog for Isaak.... and should I keep Joy Unspeakable??? Ahh, I'm not sure, any ideas?
Hubby is going through the pictures today that we've taken of Isaak, and when he gets done, I'll post some here.... along with my last and final belly pic...just for the record.
Speaking of belly pics. I miss being pregnant. Am I weird? No, I don't miss the swelling, back pain, and indigestion, but I miss everything else. I miss his movements inside me, I miss the weekly dr. visits, I miss the excuse to have a belly haha... i'd do it all again in a heartbeat!!! Which I'm relieved to hear myself say that, because we still want 4 kids.
Well - I'll aim for weekly updates, that's fair right???
Before I go, here are 10 amazing things:
1. Our little Isaak smiles when he sleeps....call it gas, call it growth, call it what you want, when you see his little face, there's no doubt it's a smile.... after all his name does mean "he who laughs"
2. His fingers are so long, everyone makes the "piano" comment, but daddy is holding out strong for the guitar.
3. I love watching Amick rush in each afternoon to see Isaak, you'd think he hadn't seen him in a week.
4. Church providing meals for two weeks is an absolute Godsend.
5. I pick him up and his crying immediately stops.....there's no better feeling than being a mom.
6. He's growing just like he should. He already weighs 7lbs 5 oz.
7. We love waiting to see what color his eyes will be.
8. Isaak has so many grandparents....he will be the most loved little boy, by his mamaw, papa, grammy, pops, nana & pa.... holidays are going to be one big partay.
9. Babies smell so good....well - once you change their diaper.
10. Sweet Isaak is a constant reminder to us of God's faithfulness.
Friday, November 14, 2008
A testimony from Amick, (Christy's husband)
So, rewind back to Tuesday afternoon 11/4... my wife and I had been in the hospital since midnight 11/3. They brought her in to be induced. We were so excited that we couldnt stand it. Just knowing Isaak is just moments away, made the wait unbearable. After hours of labor - her epidural begins to wear off. She started to feel immense pain, and none of the doctors were available to refill the epidural. I watched as tears streamed down my wife's face, I couldn't handle it.
I begin to break down and find myself leaving the room so she won't see my brokenness. I come back in to the room to find out that the doctor’s did come to check on her. In the process of checking her out they realized that Isaak’s heart rate was dropping and that they would need to put her on oxygen to help give him the oxygen he needs. Later they refilled her epidural, which gave Christy the comfort she needed. We were obviously nervous about whether they would have to do a c-section or not, but prayed that God had this under control. Hours later they came in and checked to see how far she was dilated. They said "It seems your baby has passed meconium while in the womb, and it also appears that the cord may be wrapped around his neck." This news hit my wife and I so hard and we trembled at the possible outcomes. I was reminded of just the year before when Satan had stripped us from 2 children prior to this through miscarriage. Oh we had prayed for this miracle child, and God had brought us this far and I was not ready to lie down and allow Satan to steal yet more joy from my family. I knew God was God, and I knew His promises, but somehow I became so broken in trying to hear His voice in all of this. I just sat there with tears flowing through my fingers to the floor below. I began praying,
"God, I need to hear You so strong right now. I need to know that my prayers have not been in vain. I need a sign from You."
Then, for some reason Isaiah 43:1 just ran across my mind. I don’t ever remember ever even reading that scripture, and to be honest didn’t even know if there was a chapter 43 in Isaiah. I thought, well what if God wants me to read that scripture. My mind begins telling me, “Amick, you are just searching for anything. You are just making this up to yourself.” So I said, “God, if you want me to read that scripture give me a sign” and through my tears I focused my eyes and at the bottom of Christy’s hospital bed was the brand name printed on the bottom rail “finnity-three”. I thought to myself “that is almost like forty-three.” I still kept fighting myself at the expense of looking completely stupid and having no hope. So I said, “God I am serious, if You want me to read that scripture give me an undeniable sign” and right then, to the right of that brand name were 3 numbers printed boldly and in plain sight “431”. I was like, “I don’t even care anymore if I look stupid, I need to make sure”. So I looked to the Bible and went to Isaiah 43:1 and read this:
But now, this is what the LORD says—he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
I was floored!!!! Not that I doubted God, but because He thought of me so highly to make sure I knew He was with us. I stood up, wiped the tears from eyes, read the scripture to those in the room, and said we can proceed now that the Lord has spoken. At that moment it didn’t matter what the doctor’s had said or what fear had crept in that room. God had spoken, and He had promised to deliver Isaak into this world free from harm. Moments later Isaak entered this world with a shout of praise with his perfect healthy lungs. I just wept as I listened to my son shout unto God in the only way he knew how. We were, blessed, we were loved, we were safe, and we were a family. To God be the Glory!!! All Praise goes to Him and Him alone!!! Without Him none of this would be possible.
I begin to break down and find myself leaving the room so she won't see my brokenness. I come back in to the room to find out that the doctor’s did come to check on her. In the process of checking her out they realized that Isaak’s heart rate was dropping and that they would need to put her on oxygen to help give him the oxygen he needs. Later they refilled her epidural, which gave Christy the comfort she needed. We were obviously nervous about whether they would have to do a c-section or not, but prayed that God had this under control. Hours later they came in and checked to see how far she was dilated. They said "It seems your baby has passed meconium while in the womb, and it also appears that the cord may be wrapped around his neck." This news hit my wife and I so hard and we trembled at the possible outcomes. I was reminded of just the year before when Satan had stripped us from 2 children prior to this through miscarriage. Oh we had prayed for this miracle child, and God had brought us this far and I was not ready to lie down and allow Satan to steal yet more joy from my family. I knew God was God, and I knew His promises, but somehow I became so broken in trying to hear His voice in all of this. I just sat there with tears flowing through my fingers to the floor below. I began praying,
"God, I need to hear You so strong right now. I need to know that my prayers have not been in vain. I need a sign from You."
Then, for some reason Isaiah 43:1 just ran across my mind. I don’t ever remember ever even reading that scripture, and to be honest didn’t even know if there was a chapter 43 in Isaiah. I thought, well what if God wants me to read that scripture. My mind begins telling me, “Amick, you are just searching for anything. You are just making this up to yourself.” So I said, “God, if you want me to read that scripture give me a sign” and through my tears I focused my eyes and at the bottom of Christy’s hospital bed was the brand name printed on the bottom rail “finnity-three”. I thought to myself “that is almost like forty-three.” I still kept fighting myself at the expense of looking completely stupid and having no hope. So I said, “God I am serious, if You want me to read that scripture give me an undeniable sign” and right then, to the right of that brand name were 3 numbers printed boldly and in plain sight “431”. I was like, “I don’t even care anymore if I look stupid, I need to make sure”. So I looked to the Bible and went to Isaiah 43:1 and read this:
But now, this is what the LORD says—he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
I was floored!!!! Not that I doubted God, but because He thought of me so highly to make sure I knew He was with us. I stood up, wiped the tears from eyes, read the scripture to those in the room, and said we can proceed now that the Lord has spoken. At that moment it didn’t matter what the doctor’s had said or what fear had crept in that room. God had spoken, and He had promised to deliver Isaak into this world free from harm. Moments later Isaak entered this world with a shout of praise with his perfect healthy lungs. I just wept as I listened to my son shout unto God in the only way he knew how. We were, blessed, we were loved, we were safe, and we were a family. To God be the Glory!!! All Praise goes to Him and Him alone!!! Without Him none of this would be possible.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Yay!
Here you go! I will post some baby details and updates shortly!
Me and my beautiful baby Isaak!
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Isaak just 20 minutes after he was born......so perfect!
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My sleepy boy!
First family photo....mommy is lookin rough, but she doesn't care
Finally a nursery picture!
Me and my beautiful baby Isaak!
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Isaak just 20 minutes after he was born......so perfect!
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My sleepy boy!
First family photo....mommy is lookin rough, but she doesn't care
Finally a nursery picture!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
He is here!
it's midnight (a day later) and we just got in our room.
But beautiful Isaak is here. After 21 hours of labor, long, scary & painful labor - our amazing son entered this world at 9:31pm....weighing in at 6lbs 14oz.
I'll post a good detailed update tomorrow - but now I want to sleep.
My God is amazing and answered every prayer. He is soooooo faithful! Isaak is perfect, my husband was amazing - and I am so in love.
More to come tomorrow......pictures too!!!
But beautiful Isaak is here. After 21 hours of labor, long, scary & painful labor - our amazing son entered this world at 9:31pm....weighing in at 6lbs 14oz.
I'll post a good detailed update tomorrow - but now I want to sleep.
My God is amazing and answered every prayer. He is soooooo faithful! Isaak is perfect, my husband was amazing - and I am so in love.
More to come tomorrow......pictures too!!!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
The Process
Well, this is actually Amick. I am sure i will not be quite as eloquent and inspiring as my amazing wife, but I can at least share some details. I am sitting by her side right now as she gets some rest.
After checking in last night at 12:00am, there wasn't much change thru the course of the night. They put her on some labor inducers, I slept for a few hours, Christy tossed around thru the night only getting a little sleep. This morning around 10:00am or so Dr.Sontag came in and decided to break her water. He felt like the process was underweigh and called for the epidural. I personally had a hard time with the epidural. Christy did much better than I did. She did not even flinch. I on the other hand didn't escape from it without tears. I 'm a girl-so what!!!! So now she is resting. She is dialated about 5cm / 70%. With the pitocin doing it's job, it's now a waiting game. Keep praying as the process continues.
Oh, by the way, Isaak,s already best friend Paisley stopped in for a visit. She loves him very much.
Monday, November 3, 2008
midnight has a whole new meaning
Well - I am posting this now in case I don't get a chance to update again.
But Amick and I check into the hospital tonight (well, technically Tuesday morning) at 12:01 to begin our journey to meet baby Isaak. The past 2 nights have been very anxious for me, I've barely slept, and I've tossed and turned and dreamed of every possible outcome that could happen tomorrow. If I were to be frank and honest - I'm pretty much scared.... I have literally been watching this day on the calendar for almost a year now, and to now say it's "Tomorrow" - it's just unbelievable.
I fell asleep repeating scripture in my head over and over again.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
We're bringing the laptop to the hospital, so hopefully hubby will post an update when we have one.
(I know what it's like checking blogs every second hoping for a baby update, haha!!!)
Until then pray for us....pray for Isaak, pray on our behalf! Pray that labor will be smooth with no complications. Pray that Isaak is healthy and safe. Tomorrow has been a day we've prayed for - and all anxiousness and fear aside, I cannot wait to meet my son!
Love you all!
But Amick and I check into the hospital tonight (well, technically Tuesday morning) at 12:01 to begin our journey to meet baby Isaak. The past 2 nights have been very anxious for me, I've barely slept, and I've tossed and turned and dreamed of every possible outcome that could happen tomorrow. If I were to be frank and honest - I'm pretty much scared.... I have literally been watching this day on the calendar for almost a year now, and to now say it's "Tomorrow" - it's just unbelievable.
I fell asleep repeating scripture in my head over and over again.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
We're bringing the laptop to the hospital, so hopefully hubby will post an update when we have one.
(I know what it's like checking blogs every second hoping for a baby update, haha!!!)
Until then pray for us....pray for Isaak, pray on our behalf! Pray that labor will be smooth with no complications. Pray that Isaak is healthy and safe. Tomorrow has been a day we've prayed for - and all anxiousness and fear aside, I cannot wait to meet my son!
Love you all!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
The "mom"mobile
noooo...not a mini-van....(yet)
However, we did make a significant vehicle upgrade over the weekend. One that I thought was worth posting on the baby blog - since Isaak and all of his accessories had us thinking we needed more room than our Honda could offer.
After some serious wheelin and dealin, some prayer, well-needed rest, and a final negotiation in our favor - we are now proud owners of a 2007 Ford Edge! YAY. It's gorgeous, in great shape, and is soooo roomy!
Here's a picture of our car, we transfered the carseat last night and it looks fabulous. Amick loves that its black, and I love that it's still small enough that I can park it!
I still want to give some love to Hondas, until Monday, the only car I've ever driven was a Honda......they were so good to me, and maybe one day we'll meet again, but for now - Ford has come through!
However, we did make a significant vehicle upgrade over the weekend. One that I thought was worth posting on the baby blog - since Isaak and all of his accessories had us thinking we needed more room than our Honda could offer.
After some serious wheelin and dealin, some prayer, well-needed rest, and a final negotiation in our favor - we are now proud owners of a 2007 Ford Edge! YAY. It's gorgeous, in great shape, and is soooo roomy!
Here's a picture of our car, we transfered the carseat last night and it looks fabulous. Amick loves that its black, and I love that it's still small enough that I can park it!
I still want to give some love to Hondas, until Monday, the only car I've ever driven was a Honda......they were so good to me, and maybe one day we'll meet again, but for now - Ford has come through!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Appointment update and venting
Back from the doctor - here's the update....
Still 1cm dilated.
I'm now 70% effaced - so some progress from last week!
I've dropped =)
Baby is still in position ready to go!
gained a couple more pounds for a running total of 34 - blah.
and now for the release of frustration....
Amick and I made the decision in agreement with Dr. S. to be induced next Tuesday, 4 days before my due date. The main reason being that I really want my doctor to be the one to deliver Isaak....considering that I've spent the last nine months with him as my doctor. He will be at a conference the entire week surrounding my due date, and I really would feel better knowing that he'll be there! The other reason is that I'm a planner and I'm in love with the idea of knowing that I can be ready and know the day! Plus I've been able to let my family know - and they can travel and plan to be there for the most exciting moment of our lives!!! So that is our decision. =) Key words being "OUR DECISION".
That being said - I fully appreciate all the advice and opinions - but from this point any negative statistics and outcomes would be better left unsaid. I've literally blurted out in excitement to someone: "We're being induced on the 4th!!!! Isaak will be here soon!" Only to get the reply "Oh - I'm sorry to hear that - (followed the worst most negative birth experience ever)"
Let me just go ahead and say: "I DON'T NEED TO HEAR THAT RIGHT NOW!"
Thank you to all of those who have shared encouragement and positive advice with me, it means more than you know!!!! I've been like a sponge lately - absorbing every piece of information I can get as I approach this amazing day! I guess at this point I just don't see the benefit of absorbing negative opinions - it does nothing but insert more unneeded fear and anxiety.
Here's the thing - I serve a big God, a God whose thoughts and ways are so much higher than mine, and regardless of my failed attempts to orchestrate things, He is in control and has the final say!! And I fully believe that his plan is to give me a happy, healthy baby boy named Isaak Leland Cutler.... and however short, long, happy, sad, painful, easy, hard, good, bad, or tiring the process is - when Amick and I hold that little miracle in our arms - none of it will matter!!!!!
So, stay tuned...... unless God wants to bring Isaak here before November 4, we'll wait 6 more days to see how this will all go down!
Please continue to pray for a smooth & safe delivery of a healthy happy boy!
And thanks for enduring my rant.....
Still 1cm dilated.
I'm now 70% effaced - so some progress from last week!
I've dropped =)
Baby is still in position ready to go!
gained a couple more pounds for a running total of 34 - blah.
and now for the release of frustration....
Amick and I made the decision in agreement with Dr. S. to be induced next Tuesday, 4 days before my due date. The main reason being that I really want my doctor to be the one to deliver Isaak....considering that I've spent the last nine months with him as my doctor. He will be at a conference the entire week surrounding my due date, and I really would feel better knowing that he'll be there! The other reason is that I'm a planner and I'm in love with the idea of knowing that I can be ready and know the day! Plus I've been able to let my family know - and they can travel and plan to be there for the most exciting moment of our lives!!! So that is our decision. =) Key words being "OUR DECISION".
That being said - I fully appreciate all the advice and opinions - but from this point any negative statistics and outcomes would be better left unsaid. I've literally blurted out in excitement to someone: "We're being induced on the 4th!!!! Isaak will be here soon!" Only to get the reply "Oh - I'm sorry to hear that - (followed the worst most negative birth experience ever)"
Let me just go ahead and say: "I DON'T NEED TO HEAR THAT RIGHT NOW!"
Thank you to all of those who have shared encouragement and positive advice with me, it means more than you know!!!! I've been like a sponge lately - absorbing every piece of information I can get as I approach this amazing day! I guess at this point I just don't see the benefit of absorbing negative opinions - it does nothing but insert more unneeded fear and anxiety.
Here's the thing - I serve a big God, a God whose thoughts and ways are so much higher than mine, and regardless of my failed attempts to orchestrate things, He is in control and has the final say!! And I fully believe that his plan is to give me a happy, healthy baby boy named Isaak Leland Cutler.... and however short, long, happy, sad, painful, easy, hard, good, bad, or tiring the process is - when Amick and I hold that little miracle in our arms - none of it will matter!!!!!
So, stay tuned...... unless God wants to bring Isaak here before November 4, we'll wait 6 more days to see how this will all go down!
Please continue to pray for a smooth & safe delivery of a healthy happy boy!
And thanks for enduring my rant.....
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
1 week to go...
It's hard to imagine what I will be thinking and feeling this time next week. WOW!
My emotions are all over the place, and I'm excited, overwhelmed, elated, scared, and in awe all at the same time.
I'm glad to still be at work this week - it helps me feel productive and lets the time pass without completely freaking out about how much our lives are about to change.
My face and my feet deserve an entire blog entry of their own. I absolute cannot believe the swelling that has taken over my body. I mean, I've read about it, and knew to expect it, but not this bad. I seriously am going to take a picture of my feet so you can see how crazy fat they are. I mean - they don't even resemble my feet.
But thank God for my husband who still tells me I'm beautiful even though I know otherwise.
Oh, and what are the odds of my son being born on election day, and becoming the next president??? I'd say we have a good shot! =)
Dear Sweet Isaak:
It's hard to believe that we will get to hold you in a week. Have you really been in my tummy for 9 months?!?! At church on Sunday, I felt you moving all around, I wonder if you heard Daddy singing and if you loved it so much you couldn't be still. You are destined to be a worshipper, and I can't wait to see what God has created you to be. I love your hiccups each day, they make me smile and remind me that you are well and practicing your breathing. Keep practicing - because in no time you will be here with us!
We love you so much.
-Mommy and Daddy
My emotions are all over the place, and I'm excited, overwhelmed, elated, scared, and in awe all at the same time.
I'm glad to still be at work this week - it helps me feel productive and lets the time pass without completely freaking out about how much our lives are about to change.
My face and my feet deserve an entire blog entry of their own. I absolute cannot believe the swelling that has taken over my body. I mean, I've read about it, and knew to expect it, but not this bad. I seriously am going to take a picture of my feet so you can see how crazy fat they are. I mean - they don't even resemble my feet.
But thank God for my husband who still tells me I'm beautiful even though I know otherwise.
Oh, and what are the odds of my son being born on election day, and becoming the next president??? I'd say we have a good shot! =)
Dear Sweet Isaak:
It's hard to believe that we will get to hold you in a week. Have you really been in my tummy for 9 months?!?! At church on Sunday, I felt you moving all around, I wonder if you heard Daddy singing and if you loved it so much you couldn't be still. You are destined to be a worshipper, and I can't wait to see what God has created you to be. I love your hiccups each day, they make me smile and remind me that you are well and practicing your breathing. Keep practicing - because in no time you will be here with us!
We love you so much.
-Mommy and Daddy
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Let's talk politics...
Well kinda, but not really!
Had my doctor's appointment today....and not much progress - still 1cm dilated and 50% effaced...which is still a good thing. Everything else was great.
But the big news of the day is that we tentatively have an arrival date for Mr. Isaak. I am scheduled to be induced and we will hopefully have our baby boy on ELECTION DAY, Tuesday, 11/4! I am scheduled to go in at midnight on Monday night, and they will start the process....which according to Dr. S will give us a baby boy sometime the next day! YAY.
It's taken me a couple hours to process everything - mostly because I've been anticipating the "day" for so long now, and it's actually something that I can finally visualize! HOORAY.
My last day at work will be next Friday, and I'll have next weekend and Monday to relax and make sure we're ready!!!
I can't wait!
Had my doctor's appointment today....and not much progress - still 1cm dilated and 50% effaced...which is still a good thing. Everything else was great.
But the big news of the day is that we tentatively have an arrival date for Mr. Isaak. I am scheduled to be induced and we will hopefully have our baby boy on ELECTION DAY, Tuesday, 11/4! I am scheduled to go in at midnight on Monday night, and they will start the process....which according to Dr. S will give us a baby boy sometime the next day! YAY.
It's taken me a couple hours to process everything - mostly because I've been anticipating the "day" for so long now, and it's actually something that I can finally visualize! HOORAY.
My last day at work will be next Friday, and I'll have next weekend and Monday to relax and make sure we're ready!!!
I can't wait!
Monday, October 20, 2008
37 weeks - gettin close
My ticker says 21 days left. Whoa, I can't wait.
One of the pregnancy websites I always check gives me a weekly picture and shows me something that my baby is the size of (i.e. blueberry, melon, football, etc.)
Well this morning I checked, and it was a sudden reminder of how close we are....here's the picture:
My baby is the size of A BABY! it doesn't get any better than that.
I am posting this after an exhausting weekend. Amick and I spent most of the weekend doing last minute projects to be sure we are in fact ready for Isaak to be here. I am feeling it today, because my eyes are puffy and my feet are still swollen. But I have a lot to show for it:
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* Car is clean (really clean)
* Carseat & base are correctly installed, thanks to hubby and the instruction manual.
* Our bedroom is re-arranged and the pack n play/bassinet is set up for Isaak to sleep in for the first month.
* Found hiding places for almost 2000 diapers (WHOA), we mostly hid them in closets and under Isaak's crib. We WILL not need to buy diapers for a long time =)
* We got a new vacuum; changed the air filters in our house; and put new batteries in our smoke detectors.
* Did a bunch of baby laundry...smells so good.
* Our cleaning lady comes one last time tomorrow and is super deep cleaning the house (yes, we've had a cleaning lady, it was my Christmas present last year, but after tomorrow we are parting ways *SAD DAY*. It will be my job from now on....)
* Isaak's bag is packed.
* Mommy & Daddy's bags are packed.
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Dear Isaak:
First, we love you.
Second, we are ready for you!!! Which makes me think that you will probably keep us anxiously waiting for the next three weeks. But I am glad that we are ready either way. Your daddy and I sit and watch you move around in my tummy and we wonder what you will look like, what it will feel like to see and hold you for the first time. We sit in awe of the way you already captivate us, and there aren't enough words to explain how excited we are for you to change our world!
You are our sweet little Isaak, We are ready when you are!!!
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
One of the pregnancy websites I always check gives me a weekly picture and shows me something that my baby is the size of (i.e. blueberry, melon, football, etc.)
Well this morning I checked, and it was a sudden reminder of how close we are....here's the picture:
My baby is the size of A BABY! it doesn't get any better than that.
I am posting this after an exhausting weekend. Amick and I spent most of the weekend doing last minute projects to be sure we are in fact ready for Isaak to be here. I am feeling it today, because my eyes are puffy and my feet are still swollen. But I have a lot to show for it:
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* Car is clean (really clean)
* Carseat & base are correctly installed, thanks to hubby and the instruction manual.
* Our bedroom is re-arranged and the pack n play/bassinet is set up for Isaak to sleep in for the first month.
* Found hiding places for almost 2000 diapers (WHOA), we mostly hid them in closets and under Isaak's crib. We WILL not need to buy diapers for a long time =)
* We got a new vacuum; changed the air filters in our house; and put new batteries in our smoke detectors.
* Did a bunch of baby laundry...smells so good.
* Our cleaning lady comes one last time tomorrow and is super deep cleaning the house (yes, we've had a cleaning lady, it was my Christmas present last year, but after tomorrow we are parting ways *SAD DAY*. It will be my job from now on....)
* Isaak's bag is packed.
* Mommy & Daddy's bags are packed.
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Dear Isaak:
First, we love you.
Second, we are ready for you!!! Which makes me think that you will probably keep us anxiously waiting for the next three weeks. But I am glad that we are ready either way. Your daddy and I sit and watch you move around in my tummy and we wonder what you will look like, what it will feel like to see and hold you for the first time. We sit in awe of the way you already captivate us, and there aren't enough words to explain how excited we are for you to change our world!
You are our sweet little Isaak, We are ready when you are!!!
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
Friday, October 17, 2008
Last Shower & Belly pic
Today, all of the ladies I work with threw me a nice shower at my office. We got a bunch of great stuff, including the diaper champ which I've been waiting on!!! I can't wait to get home and put it all away. After today, Isaak is officially set - maybe he will know I am ready, and decide to come and see us!!!!
Group photo...all the ladies that I work with.
Cute little sleeper for Isaak
Isaak loves presents!!!!
Yummy Cake!
Look at all the yummy food!
All the guys I worked with put in money and we got a TON of diapers.
Isaak is set!!!!
Let me just say again, how blessed Amick and I feel that so many people have just honored us and our baby with all of these gifts, I get overwhelmed when I think about the generosity, and I just think of how wonderful it is to have such amazing people in our lives to celebrate with us. It truly has made this journey so much fun!
Lastly, here is a belly picture - almost 37 weeks!!! Sorry the quality is not so good, I took it myself....it's big!!!!
Front view WHOA!
Side view!
Group photo...all the ladies that I work with.
Cute little sleeper for Isaak
Isaak loves presents!!!!
Yummy Cake!
Look at all the yummy food!
All the guys I worked with put in money and we got a TON of diapers.
Isaak is set!!!!
Let me just say again, how blessed Amick and I feel that so many people have just honored us and our baby with all of these gifts, I get overwhelmed when I think about the generosity, and I just think of how wonderful it is to have such amazing people in our lives to celebrate with us. It truly has made this journey so much fun!
Lastly, here is a belly picture - almost 37 weeks!!! Sorry the quality is not so good, I took it myself....it's big!!!!
Front view WHOA!
Side view!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Appointment update
Well - here's the news:
- gained 3 more pounds - Pounds, Schmounds - that's what I say!!! I'm so over it. I'm as big as a house and that's all there is to it!
- Sweet Isaak is down low, and head down. He is in position. My little boy knows just what to do.
- Big news, we have progress people! I am 1 centimeter dilated and 50% effaced (thinned out). Those of you that have been there before know that could mean many different outcomes, but mostly it's just good because it means that my body is doing what it's supposed to do to get ready. Dr. S said it could be a week or 3 weeks....just a waiting game at this point!
- Everything else is good, and I go back in a week!
sooooo - until next time! WOO HOO.
Baby Isaak - we are ready for you. And we already love you more than you know!
- gained 3 more pounds - Pounds, Schmounds - that's what I say!!! I'm so over it. I'm as big as a house and that's all there is to it!
- Sweet Isaak is down low, and head down. He is in position. My little boy knows just what to do.
- Big news, we have progress people! I am 1 centimeter dilated and 50% effaced (thinned out). Those of you that have been there before know that could mean many different outcomes, but mostly it's just good because it means that my body is doing what it's supposed to do to get ready. Dr. S said it could be a week or 3 weeks....just a waiting game at this point!
- Everything else is good, and I go back in a week!
sooooo - until next time! WOO HOO.
Baby Isaak - we are ready for you. And we already love you more than you know!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
36 weeks
This has been an ok week. I honestly am not as miserable as I thought I would be. I'm to the point now that every person I see has a comment similar to:
"I bet you're ready for him to be outta there"
"You feelin miserable yet?"
"I bet you can't wait."
.... well of course I'm ready to meet this little guy, and carrying around an extra 30 pounds is never FUN, but I'm doin ok. I'd say the only thing that stands out in my mind right now as being uncomfortable is my HUGE SWELLING FEET. They don't look like my feet, they look like Shrek feet....except they're not green. They look so different I'm considering posting a picture so you can see.
The nursery is nearly done! It's beautiful, pictures to come soon!!
I can almost see the finish line!
"I bet you're ready for him to be outta there"
"You feelin miserable yet?"
"I bet you can't wait."
.... well of course I'm ready to meet this little guy, and carrying around an extra 30 pounds is never FUN, but I'm doin ok. I'd say the only thing that stands out in my mind right now as being uncomfortable is my HUGE SWELLING FEET. They don't look like my feet, they look like Shrek feet....except they're not green. They look so different I'm considering posting a picture so you can see.
The nursery is nearly done! It's beautiful, pictures to come soon!!
I can almost see the finish line!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
in love
I sit here this morning and smile as Isaak wiggles around in hopes of finding some extra room to play. What he doesn't know is that he will continue to run out of room until he decides to arrive and make his mommy and daddy the happiest people on earth. The way that I feel today cannot be accurately described because there aren't enough words.... but a sense of 'overwhelming gratitude and love' would be a good start. I think back over the past 8 months, and soak in every milestone and every emotion that we've crossed...what an absolute miracle we've been given. This life inside of me has changed Amick and I - and he isn't even here yet.
I can remember for as long as I live wanting to be a "mommy" - but I don't think I ever really realized how much I would yearn for it. And, obviously I won't know the capacity of that love that i'll feel until I see his little face, but it's growing day by day. As his arrival date gets closer and closer my heart just fills even more with excitement and anticipation - and just a longing to hold him, and love him, and do my very best to make sure that he knows how very special and wonderful he is. We prayed for Isaak, we earnestly prayed that God would give him to us - that this pregnancy would be the one - that the fear and problems from our previous miscarriages would be cast far away... and our prayers have been answered.
Isaak has the hiccups right now - every 3 seconds my tummy jumps. It's the best feeling. That means that he's practicing his breathing. My sweet Isaak is getting ready. He will be a strong little guy, and he will be so loved.
I'll leave with a copy of one of the updates I sent out from the very beginning of this pregnancy. Our milestone was hearing the heartbeat....that meant to us that our little baby had sustained life past our previous miscarriage points. It was so huge and such a miraculous day.... I read through it the other day and just cried tears of gratitude for where I stand right now - hiccups and all!
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Update #3!!! March 26, 2008
I am extremely blessed to be able to send out another positve update!
On Monday, we went to the doctor, knowing "this was it"....this was the appointment we'd been waiting for! I laid on the table as the tech did the ultrasound, and I saw the sac again, it was still there!! I saw the baby, it was still there TOO, and had grown! AND THEN, as we looked at the baby, I saw a tiny little bulge moving in the center, kind of like a pulse. I asked the tech, "Is that the...." and before i could finish, she nodded and said "Yes, that's the heartbeat". Then she turned up the volume, and the baby's little heartbeat filled the room, at 135 beats per minute! This little baby, only the size of a blueberry is a true living miracle, inside of me.
This day was SOOOOOOOO huge for us.
Once again, tears ran down my face, and my mom, Amick and I breathed a sigh of relief.
The doctor had NOTHING negative to say, and was very re-assuring, telling us that passing this milestone meant that our chances of something bad happening were now less than 1%. He said he was very pleased with everything.
All I can do is thank God for this miracle. I still don't know why our journey has happened the way it did, but I do know that because of it, there is not one part of this pregnancy or this baby that will be taken for granted. And on top of it we have surely learned a thing or two about true faith.
Amick and I cannot thank you enough for your prayers so far, and we ask that you continue to pray, we are only 7 weeks into a 40 week journey!
We are still waiting it out a few more weeks before we let out the news to everyone, but as our close friends and family, I wanted to keep you updated.
I will end with a verse, a verse that came to mind as I sat at my first ultrasound, terrified and worried. My mom referred to the baby as a little mustard seed. Oh, how right she was!!!
The Lord replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree,
'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you."
Luke 17:6
I can remember for as long as I live wanting to be a "mommy" - but I don't think I ever really realized how much I would yearn for it. And, obviously I won't know the capacity of that love that i'll feel until I see his little face, but it's growing day by day. As his arrival date gets closer and closer my heart just fills even more with excitement and anticipation - and just a longing to hold him, and love him, and do my very best to make sure that he knows how very special and wonderful he is. We prayed for Isaak, we earnestly prayed that God would give him to us - that this pregnancy would be the one - that the fear and problems from our previous miscarriages would be cast far away... and our prayers have been answered.
Isaak has the hiccups right now - every 3 seconds my tummy jumps. It's the best feeling. That means that he's practicing his breathing. My sweet Isaak is getting ready. He will be a strong little guy, and he will be so loved.
I'll leave with a copy of one of the updates I sent out from the very beginning of this pregnancy. Our milestone was hearing the heartbeat....that meant to us that our little baby had sustained life past our previous miscarriage points. It was so huge and such a miraculous day.... I read through it the other day and just cried tears of gratitude for where I stand right now - hiccups and all!
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Update #3!!! March 26, 2008
I am extremely blessed to be able to send out another positve update!
On Monday, we went to the doctor, knowing "this was it"....this was the appointment we'd been waiting for! I laid on the table as the tech did the ultrasound, and I saw the sac again, it was still there!! I saw the baby, it was still there TOO, and had grown! AND THEN, as we looked at the baby, I saw a tiny little bulge moving in the center, kind of like a pulse. I asked the tech, "Is that the...." and before i could finish, she nodded and said "Yes, that's the heartbeat". Then she turned up the volume, and the baby's little heartbeat filled the room, at 135 beats per minute! This little baby, only the size of a blueberry is a true living miracle, inside of me.
This day was SOOOOOOOO huge for us.
Once again, tears ran down my face, and my mom, Amick and I breathed a sigh of relief.
The doctor had NOTHING negative to say, and was very re-assuring, telling us that passing this milestone meant that our chances of something bad happening were now less than 1%. He said he was very pleased with everything.
All I can do is thank God for this miracle. I still don't know why our journey has happened the way it did, but I do know that because of it, there is not one part of this pregnancy or this baby that will be taken for granted. And on top of it we have surely learned a thing or two about true faith.
Amick and I cannot thank you enough for your prayers so far, and we ask that you continue to pray, we are only 7 weeks into a 40 week journey!
We are still waiting it out a few more weeks before we let out the news to everyone, but as our close friends and family, I wanted to keep you updated.
I will end with a verse, a verse that came to mind as I sat at my first ultrasound, terrified and worried. My mom referred to the baby as a little mustard seed. Oh, how right she was!!!
The Lord replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree,
'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you."
Luke 17:6
Monday, October 6, 2008
shower photos
I don't have many, but here are a few....I have loved my showers, and all of the wonderful people who threw them for me! We are so blessed, and Isaak is so loved already. Thank you to everyone who came - it meant so much being able to celebrate with those closest to us!!!
Me at my church shower this past weekend.... planned and executed by the shower pro herself - Veronica....
look at how beautiful everything was! And she did it being 38 weeks pregnant - that's a true friend.
look at all of Isaak's gifts, yep that one present is wrapped in the most cuddly blanket ever that grammee(my mom) made for Isaak. I love it!
Here are the preggos at my other shower. Me at 33 weeks, Tonya at 24 weeks, Veronica at 36 weeks. Isaak, Taylor & Paisley all hangin out already. YAY.
Me and my bff Jessica. Jessica, Tonya and my mom put so much time and effort into this shower and it was beautiful. The food - AMAZING! we got to spend time with our closest friends, open tons of good presents for Isaak, and the boys played poker in exchange for diapers!!!
group photo, what a beautiful group of ladies
This is the adorable diaper bag that Michelle gave me at our family shower in Ocala. My Mimi, Aunt Donna & cousin Nicki threw this shower for us, and we were blessed beyond belief....so much love and great presents! Sorry I don't have any good pics from this one
Me and Amick at the Ocala shower.
Me at my church shower this past weekend.... planned and executed by the shower pro herself - Veronica....
look at how beautiful everything was! And she did it being 38 weeks pregnant - that's a true friend.
look at all of Isaak's gifts, yep that one present is wrapped in the most cuddly blanket ever that grammee(my mom) made for Isaak. I love it!
Here are the preggos at my other shower. Me at 33 weeks, Tonya at 24 weeks, Veronica at 36 weeks. Isaak, Taylor & Paisley all hangin out already. YAY.
Me and my bff Jessica. Jessica, Tonya and my mom put so much time and effort into this shower and it was beautiful. The food - AMAZING! we got to spend time with our closest friends, open tons of good presents for Isaak, and the boys played poker in exchange for diapers!!!
group photo, what a beautiful group of ladies
This is the adorable diaper bag that Michelle gave me at our family shower in Ocala. My Mimi, Aunt Donna & cousin Nicki threw this shower for us, and we were blessed beyond belief....so much love and great presents! Sorry I don't have any good pics from this one
Me and Amick at the Ocala shower.
Friday, October 3, 2008
35 weeks - Appointment update:
Had my doctor's appointment yesterday, and everything went so well. Here's what I know.
* Isaak is head down and getting ready to make his debut. Dr. S said that at this point he should stay where he is. Good news.
* If I went into labor at this point, my doctor wouldn't stop it. Isaak would be just as healthy... (I don't want this, I'm just sayin =)
* Isaak weighs about 4.5 pounds right now, and we're estimating him to weigh around 6.5 - 7.5 when he's born. Yay, my teeny boy.
* I've gained 26 pounds so far, with a 4 pound weight gain in the past 2 weeks....which I'm attributing to poor food choices and fluid retention....YOU SHOULD SEE MY HANDS. You will all be happy to know that I am finally at peace with the weight issues. At this point, I feel like house, I look like a house - and there's not a thing I can do about it. So for the next 5 weeks, me and my extra 26 pounds will be friends.....after that it's farewell.
* I felt so good after our appointment yesterday, Dr. S took the time to talk us through the next few weeks, and said that if we need anything AT ALL, to not even try to call in, just go to triage....he'd rather me be that crazy woman at L&D everyday, than be the one who stays at home the one time she should have gone in. He said "you've got a healthy happy baby in there, and I'm committed to keep it that way". I am blessed to say that I've had no real problems so far - and we are praying for that to continue from now until November.
* My chart actually has my due date as Nov 8??? Why, I don't know , but at this point - every day counts!
* My next appointment is on Oct 15 - and I'll get my first "check" to see if there's any progress goin on. WHOA~!
So, here's to the next 38 days! - or less =) I need a cherry limeade to celebrate all this good news.
I love it!
* Isaak is head down and getting ready to make his debut. Dr. S said that at this point he should stay where he is. Good news.
* If I went into labor at this point, my doctor wouldn't stop it. Isaak would be just as healthy... (I don't want this, I'm just sayin =)
* Isaak weighs about 4.5 pounds right now, and we're estimating him to weigh around 6.5 - 7.5 when he's born. Yay, my teeny boy.
* I've gained 26 pounds so far, with a 4 pound weight gain in the past 2 weeks....which I'm attributing to poor food choices and fluid retention....YOU SHOULD SEE MY HANDS. You will all be happy to know that I am finally at peace with the weight issues. At this point, I feel like house, I look like a house - and there's not a thing I can do about it. So for the next 5 weeks, me and my extra 26 pounds will be friends.....after that it's farewell.
* I felt so good after our appointment yesterday, Dr. S took the time to talk us through the next few weeks, and said that if we need anything AT ALL, to not even try to call in, just go to triage....he'd rather me be that crazy woman at L&D everyday, than be the one who stays at home the one time she should have gone in. He said "you've got a healthy happy baby in there, and I'm committed to keep it that way". I am blessed to say that I've had no real problems so far - and we are praying for that to continue from now until November.
* My chart actually has my due date as Nov 8??? Why, I don't know , but at this point - every day counts!
* My next appointment is on Oct 15 - and I'll get my first "check" to see if there's any progress goin on. WHOA~!
So, here's to the next 38 days! - or less =) I need a cherry limeade to celebrate all this good news.
I love it!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
so close but so far away =)
OK, I've been waiting for this day for awhile now =). Now I can finally say "I'm having a baby NEXT month" Woo hoo!
I'm so sorry my posting has been so scarce. I always have so much to say - but can never put into a logical format for you to read. SORRY!!!!!!!! I know so many of you have been faithful blog checkers every day. I love that you are as excited to meet Isaak as I am.
Here are some updates and some countdowns for you.
* I'm about to hit the 5 week to go mark. I know, I know, 5 weeks to go.....there's not much to that specific number, but I think about really how quickly that can go by and I get so extremely excited.
* I'm comfortably uncomfortable if that makes sense.... I guess the discomfort is to be expected but as of now it's not overbearing. YET. Whenever I look at my hands and feet, I laugh - because they don't look like mine at all. I just hope they go back to normal. I feel like my tummy has stopped growing. I'm sure it hasn't - but it feels that way. Maybe everything else is growing with it so I don't notice. GRRR.
* The nursery is coming along nicely. I walk in there every day when I get home. I love the way it smells, I love the color of the room, I love the carpet, I love seeing his clothes hanging in the closet. We are still missing a few key items... mattress, bedding, changing pad, lamp etc. But it's all coming together one piece at a time. I love it. Last night I just sat on the floor and put together little outfits with matching shoes. They are all so cute, and I just can't wait for him to be here so I can love him everyday!
* We have been so blessed!!!! When I get photos from our showers I will post some. But our friends and family have been sooooo generous and I just can't say enough how grateful we are to have so much love and support. It means everything.
* We have officially completed our our classes. After attending breastfeeding, newborn parenting, and childbirth classes over the past 2 months, you'd think I'd know everything there is to know, but I still feel as clueless as ever. I'm just hoping that maternal instinct does kick in, at least a little bit - because there really is sooooo much to know! I guess I'll know when I know, and I'll learn by going through it.
Countdowns......
days until my due date - 40
days until my shower - 4
days until my next dr's appt - 1
days until i actually meet my little miracle - 20, 30, 40?? who knows.
Here's my other predicament - I've been horrible about posting photos....with a good excuse though. We don't have internet at home, and so I always forget to send the camera to work with Amick so he can post them. But I'm making another promise to get some photos on here by next week. I know you need to see an updated picture, and some nursery photos. Soooo, I'll get busy with that.
Love you all!
I'm so sorry my posting has been so scarce. I always have so much to say - but can never put into a logical format for you to read. SORRY!!!!!!!! I know so many of you have been faithful blog checkers every day. I love that you are as excited to meet Isaak as I am.
Here are some updates and some countdowns for you.
* I'm about to hit the 5 week to go mark. I know, I know, 5 weeks to go.....there's not much to that specific number, but I think about really how quickly that can go by and I get so extremely excited.
* I'm comfortably uncomfortable if that makes sense.... I guess the discomfort is to be expected but as of now it's not overbearing. YET. Whenever I look at my hands and feet, I laugh - because they don't look like mine at all. I just hope they go back to normal. I feel like my tummy has stopped growing. I'm sure it hasn't - but it feels that way. Maybe everything else is growing with it so I don't notice. GRRR.
* The nursery is coming along nicely. I walk in there every day when I get home. I love the way it smells, I love the color of the room, I love the carpet, I love seeing his clothes hanging in the closet. We are still missing a few key items... mattress, bedding, changing pad, lamp etc. But it's all coming together one piece at a time. I love it. Last night I just sat on the floor and put together little outfits with matching shoes. They are all so cute, and I just can't wait for him to be here so I can love him everyday!
* We have been so blessed!!!! When I get photos from our showers I will post some. But our friends and family have been sooooo generous and I just can't say enough how grateful we are to have so much love and support. It means everything.
* We have officially completed our our classes. After attending breastfeeding, newborn parenting, and childbirth classes over the past 2 months, you'd think I'd know everything there is to know, but I still feel as clueless as ever. I'm just hoping that maternal instinct does kick in, at least a little bit - because there really is sooooo much to know! I guess I'll know when I know, and I'll learn by going through it.
Countdowns......
days until my due date - 40
days until my shower - 4
days until my next dr's appt - 1
days until i actually meet my little miracle - 20, 30, 40?? who knows.
Here's my other predicament - I've been horrible about posting photos....with a good excuse though. We don't have internet at home, and so I always forget to send the camera to work with Amick so he can post them. But I'm making another promise to get some photos on here by next week. I know you need to see an updated picture, and some nursery photos. Soooo, I'll get busy with that.
Love you all!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
32 weeks
Thanks to my dad and Michelle - you get a belly pic!!! YAY
Excuse my non-matching pj's - I know, you love the goodwill T-shirt =).
Isaak is growing!!!
Excuse my non-matching pj's - I know, you love the goodwill T-shirt =).
Isaak is growing!!!
Thursday, September 11, 2008
until we meet...
Well I had my last ultrasound at the scan lab last night. After 32 weeks....the baby is too big and the students can't really learn much. So I got to see my little Isaak yesterday once more, and now the countdown begins until I meet him for the first time.
He weighed in at exactly 4 lbs.
His little feet are a little over 2 inches long (how cute)
I'm measuring right on track.
We saw him yawn too!
Amick and I think that he'll have some cute little cheeks, but we'll see.
I also asked the ultrasound tech to look and see if she saw any hair......none yet.....but of course that could all change.
This is going to be a busy month, childbirth classes, showers, newborn parenting classes, and lots of preparation!
I can't explain how excited I'm starting to get.....it's really started to sink in over the past two weeks. Amick and I can't begin to anticipate how much love we will feel for this little miracle that God has blessed us with.
I CAN'T WAIT!
He weighed in at exactly 4 lbs.
His little feet are a little over 2 inches long (how cute)
I'm measuring right on track.
We saw him yawn too!
Amick and I think that he'll have some cute little cheeks, but we'll see.
I also asked the ultrasound tech to look and see if she saw any hair......none yet.....but of course that could all change.
This is going to be a busy month, childbirth classes, showers, newborn parenting classes, and lots of preparation!
I can't explain how excited I'm starting to get.....it's really started to sink in over the past two weeks. Amick and I can't begin to anticipate how much love we will feel for this little miracle that God has blessed us with.
I CAN'T WAIT!
Monday, September 8, 2008
Woo hoo!
Yes, that's right people......we have a middle name.
ISAAK LELAND CUTLER
Whew - what a relief!!!
Anyway, daddy made his new rockstar big-boy blog banner (see above) which I'm sure Isaak will love.
So, spread the news, the name is finally official, and now we can move on to the next item on list.
i.e. carpet in the nursery!
oh, and I know I still need to post belly & nursery pictures....I will soon, I promise!
ISAAK LELAND CUTLER
Whew - what a relief!!!
Anyway, daddy made his new rockstar big-boy blog banner (see above) which I'm sure Isaak will love.
So, spread the news, the name is finally official, and now we can move on to the next item on list.
i.e. carpet in the nursery!
oh, and I know I still need to post belly & nursery pictures....I will soon, I promise!
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Must be running out of room
First off - Yay for me making it to 30 weeks! I'm getting so excited that I have to make myself think about other things because I can hardly stand it.
On to other news. Every day for the past week - I've experienced what I've only ever heard others talk about......indigestion!!!!! It doesn't matter what I eat, when I eat, or how I eat it - once I'm through, I just feel icky. The first couple times I thought I was just making bad decisions on food choices, but I've realized now that whether it's an apple, yogurt or even just a salad...I feel blah afterwords. So I'm thinking it's because Isaak is growing, leaving my stomach less room to do it's job. Oh well - maybe for now, less will be more!!! =)
Ahhh sleep.....such a wonderful thing, but it's a wonderful thing I haven't been getting much of. We went on a mini vacation last weekend, and I got maybe a total of 10 hours sleep in 4 days, I thought it was because we were on an air mattress until today. Last night I went to sleep in my own comfy bed, but tossed and turned ALL night, and on top of that woke up at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep. So I moved myself to the couch and ate cereal and watched the gospel music channel until the sun came up. Guess my body is preparing me for the many sleepless nights to come.
Next appointment is Friday! I'll update then
On to other news. Every day for the past week - I've experienced what I've only ever heard others talk about......indigestion!!!!! It doesn't matter what I eat, when I eat, or how I eat it - once I'm through, I just feel icky. The first couple times I thought I was just making bad decisions on food choices, but I've realized now that whether it's an apple, yogurt or even just a salad...I feel blah afterwords. So I'm thinking it's because Isaak is growing, leaving my stomach less room to do it's job. Oh well - maybe for now, less will be more!!! =)
Ahhh sleep.....such a wonderful thing, but it's a wonderful thing I haven't been getting much of. We went on a mini vacation last weekend, and I got maybe a total of 10 hours sleep in 4 days, I thought it was because we were on an air mattress until today. Last night I went to sleep in my own comfy bed, but tossed and turned ALL night, and on top of that woke up at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep. So I moved myself to the couch and ate cereal and watched the gospel music channel until the sun came up. Guess my body is preparing me for the many sleepless nights to come.
Next appointment is Friday! I'll update then
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
30 weeks is right around the corner
Being pregnant is now a part of who I am.......yesterday I tried to imagine what it felt like to not have a belly - I couldn't do it!?!? I saw a non-pregnant picture of myself and it looked so weird. I guess it's crazy neat how your mind and body adjust to the seasons you go through in life. I can guarantee that once baby Isaak is here - I will be up and ready to not have a belly anymore, but for now I'm ok with it.
Now the weight gain in my face.......that's another story. I hate it. It's always been like that. Whenever I go through periods of weight gain, the first place it goes is my face. Why the face? I can hide everything else, but my face is the first thing people see....and right now it is a very round and fluffy face - so round that I refuse to be in photos. BOO - I need to get over it. Someone tell me to get over it!
I had a dr's appointment last Friday, it was glucose test day. (By the way, humpfh to all the people that tried to tell me "it's not really that bad").......at least they gave that drink to me chilled so it went down ok, and actually the drinking part wasn't terrible, but once it got in my tummy.... me & Isaak were not happy campers. That stuff messed with me all day. First of all Isaak's heart rate was almost 170!!!!!!!!! That much sugar cannot be good for any reason. I ended up feelin poopy and nauseaus that whole day. I'm assuming everything tested ok, because I haven't heard back from the doctor.
I didn't gain any weight in 2 weeks....that helped my self esteem a tad....but I know it'll probably catch up with me next time around =).
I am just now getting over a horrible sinus infection. It started out from a cold I got about 2 weeks ago, and continuously got worse until last Wednesday when I was in tears because I literally could not BREATHE! finally my doctor called me in an antibiotic, and last night was the first night in two weeks I could sleep and breathe through my nose, hooray! Oh the things we take for granted.
I saved the best news for last!! We painted the nursery! I will post pictures soon, but just know that it's gorgeous and Amick did such a good job. Funny how painting feels like such an accomplishment...every time I walk by the room now, I feel like this is actually real - and going to happen! We are going to have a little baby boy in our house in less than 11 weeks! WOW!
This is the color we used.....it's called "Sea Nymph Green" It's going to look great with the bedding.
Now the weight gain in my face.......that's another story. I hate it. It's always been like that. Whenever I go through periods of weight gain, the first place it goes is my face. Why the face? I can hide everything else, but my face is the first thing people see....and right now it is a very round and fluffy face - so round that I refuse to be in photos. BOO - I need to get over it. Someone tell me to get over it!
I had a dr's appointment last Friday, it was glucose test day. (By the way, humpfh to all the people that tried to tell me "it's not really that bad").......at least they gave that drink to me chilled so it went down ok, and actually the drinking part wasn't terrible, but once it got in my tummy.... me & Isaak were not happy campers. That stuff messed with me all day. First of all Isaak's heart rate was almost 170!!!!!!!!! That much sugar cannot be good for any reason. I ended up feelin poopy and nauseaus that whole day. I'm assuming everything tested ok, because I haven't heard back from the doctor.
I didn't gain any weight in 2 weeks....that helped my self esteem a tad....but I know it'll probably catch up with me next time around =).
I am just now getting over a horrible sinus infection. It started out from a cold I got about 2 weeks ago, and continuously got worse until last Wednesday when I was in tears because I literally could not BREATHE! finally my doctor called me in an antibiotic, and last night was the first night in two weeks I could sleep and breathe through my nose, hooray! Oh the things we take for granted.
I saved the best news for last!! We painted the nursery! I will post pictures soon, but just know that it's gorgeous and Amick did such a good job. Funny how painting feels like such an accomplishment...every time I walk by the room now, I feel like this is actually real - and going to happen! We are going to have a little baby boy in our house in less than 11 weeks! WOW!
This is the color we used.....it's called "Sea Nymph Green" It's going to look great with the bedding.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
28 weeks
5 things
*1*
Less than 12 weeks to go!!!!!!!! I've made it to the third trimester. It's crazy how pregnancy goes by so fast and so slow at the same time.
*2*
My hands are puffy... I officially had to take off my wedding ring last week (sad). I am trying to embrace this "puffy" time in my life, really I am!
*3*
Paint sample for the nursery came in - so we hope to move into phase 2 of project nursery soon!!!
*4*
At night in bed, when I lay with my tummy facing Amick's back, he can feel Isaak kicking.......it's his new favorite thing. I just love it, because I can hear Amick laugh every time he kicks.
*5*
Still no middle name.........ahhhhhhhhh
new belly pic coming soon!
*1*
Less than 12 weeks to go!!!!!!!! I've made it to the third trimester. It's crazy how pregnancy goes by so fast and so slow at the same time.
*2*
My hands are puffy... I officially had to take off my wedding ring last week (sad). I am trying to embrace this "puffy" time in my life, really I am!
*3*
Paint sample for the nursery came in - so we hope to move into phase 2 of project nursery soon!!!
*4*
At night in bed, when I lay with my tummy facing Amick's back, he can feel Isaak kicking.......it's his new favorite thing. I just love it, because I can hear Amick laugh every time he kicks.
*5*
Still no middle name.........ahhhhhhhhh
new belly pic coming soon!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Appointment update
Had my last 4 week appointment this past Friday.....and all went well.
- Isaak is weighing in just under 2.5 lbs. How cuuuuute.
- I am weighing in at TOO MUCH! gained 4 lbs in 4 weeks. yipes. (for a running total of 17)
- next Friday is the glucose test...woo hoo
- Me and Isaak are both measuring perfect.
- I've made it to the third trimester.
- After Monday's contraction scare, Dr. S did tested me to see if I'm at risk for pre-term labor. All came back negative which was a relief for all of us.
- I go in every 2 weeks from now on.
So I will end with just a couple items worth discussing:
I've gained 17 pounds so far. And while that matches up with all the pregnancy books I read, I'll admit I'm worried about the weeks ahead. I was told to expect a lot more weight gain in this trimester than I've seen so far....WHAT! Of course I went into this with high hopes...to not pass the 30lb mark.... but as of now, I am not optimistic. No, I haven't spent hours on treadmills, and my snacks don't normally consist of carrot sticks and crackers....but, I do feel that I've been pretty good with my choices. Oh well, I guess the weight will gain itself regardless of my feelings, and I just need to accept that. It's just hard to adjust to the number on the scale....when it's a number that I NEVER expected to see for myself. Call it a complex - if you wish. I just didn't want to be that person everyone referred to as the one "who really let herself go". And when I hear that my sweet Isaak weighs in at just over 2 pounds, I can't help but wonder why I need to be carrying around the other 15. Oh well!
All weight hate aside, I have truly enjoyed this pregnancy.....aside from the 5 weeks of 1st trimester BLAH I had, this adventure has been wonderful. I know there are still things yet to come - that I may complain about - but overall the past 5 months have been the best. I love being pregnant, I love feeling pregnant. I love that my stomach is big, I love maternity clothes, I love feeling Isaak move around, I love thinking about him, I love that he's growing, and that he's healthy. I love dreaming about the nursery, I love reading pregnancy books, I love the thought of being a "family". There's just so much that I love. I was reading another preggo blog the other day and a friend of mine posted a blog that brought me to tears because it was sooooo very true. What a picture of God's amazing love.
Copy and paste this link into your browser:
http://kjillmanny.blogspot.com/2008/07/without-question-love.html
Anyway, as I sail into the 3rd trimester - I'm attempting to treasure this time, because it has flown by.....and as much as I enjoy being pregnant I will enjoy even more meeting my little guy for the first time.
- Isaak is weighing in just under 2.5 lbs. How cuuuuute.
- I am weighing in at TOO MUCH! gained 4 lbs in 4 weeks. yipes. (for a running total of 17)
- next Friday is the glucose test...woo hoo
- Me and Isaak are both measuring perfect.
- I've made it to the third trimester.
- After Monday's contraction scare, Dr. S did tested me to see if I'm at risk for pre-term labor. All came back negative which was a relief for all of us.
- I go in every 2 weeks from now on.
So I will end with just a couple items worth discussing:
I've gained 17 pounds so far. And while that matches up with all the pregnancy books I read, I'll admit I'm worried about the weeks ahead. I was told to expect a lot more weight gain in this trimester than I've seen so far....WHAT! Of course I went into this with high hopes...to not pass the 30lb mark.... but as of now, I am not optimistic. No, I haven't spent hours on treadmills, and my snacks don't normally consist of carrot sticks and crackers....but, I do feel that I've been pretty good with my choices. Oh well, I guess the weight will gain itself regardless of my feelings, and I just need to accept that. It's just hard to adjust to the number on the scale....when it's a number that I NEVER expected to see for myself. Call it a complex - if you wish. I just didn't want to be that person everyone referred to as the one "who really let herself go". And when I hear that my sweet Isaak weighs in at just over 2 pounds, I can't help but wonder why I need to be carrying around the other 15. Oh well!
All weight hate aside, I have truly enjoyed this pregnancy.....aside from the 5 weeks of 1st trimester BLAH I had, this adventure has been wonderful. I know there are still things yet to come - that I may complain about - but overall the past 5 months have been the best. I love being pregnant, I love feeling pregnant. I love that my stomach is big, I love maternity clothes, I love feeling Isaak move around, I love thinking about him, I love that he's growing, and that he's healthy. I love dreaming about the nursery, I love reading pregnancy books, I love the thought of being a "family". There's just so much that I love. I was reading another preggo blog the other day and a friend of mine posted a blog that brought me to tears because it was sooooo very true. What a picture of God's amazing love.
Copy and paste this link into your browser:
http://kjillmanny.blogspot.com/2008/07/without-question-love.html
Anyway, as I sail into the 3rd trimester - I'm attempting to treasure this time, because it has flown by.....and as much as I enjoy being pregnant I will enjoy even more meeting my little guy for the first time.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
26 weeks, contractions, & triage
Are you ready for this?
So, the other night, Amick and I were finishing our routine of Monday night shows, and around 9:30 or so, I noticed I'd had a couple contractions. I blew them off thinking, ohhhh these must be the Braxton Hicks contractions everyone talks about. Well as an hour went by - It was very obvious that these contractions were about 3 minutes apart. ummm yeah, it scared me a little - only because I had no idea what caused them or what I should do about it. I've read that random contractions are normal, but I've also read if you can time them then it's time for a call in to the doctor.
So at 10:30, that's what I did....the on call doctor told me to lay on my side for another hour and continue to watch them....if they were persistent or got worse, he told me to go to the hospital. Of course, an hour went by and nothing changed, so Amick and I got in the car and drove to to L&D, and I had my first encounter with triage. Of course I felt silly - b/c I was the 2nd trimester pregnant lady freaking out over nothing....but oh well - my mind was already racing, and rightly so I was worried.
They checked me in and hooked me up to all sorts of things, one being the band thingy that monitors your contractions...sure enough on the screen, there they were - every 3 minutes. After 2 hours, several tests, and a blasted catheter.....we had no answer to why this was happening..... good news was there was no dilation, and everything that was supposed to be closed, WAS! But the bad news was I was still having crazy contractions?!?!?!
So finally at 1:00am, I was given a shot of terbutaline (similar to a muscle relaxer) to stop the contractions, and sure enough 15 minutes later, they were gone. By 2:30am we were home, and thanks to a sleeping pill, I was able to get some sleep.
All that and a follow up call to my doctor confirmed that the contractions were brought on by stress & dehydration? what????
Me and water now have a renewed relationship - because between now and November, I DO NOT want to experience that again.
I also had a chat with baby Isaak and my uterus.....letting them know to PLEASE hang tight for a couple more months.
So, here's the verse I'm clinging to after all of that:
Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
(The message version is good too =)
There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish
WHEW!!!!
So, the other night, Amick and I were finishing our routine of Monday night shows, and around 9:30 or so, I noticed I'd had a couple contractions. I blew them off thinking, ohhhh these must be the Braxton Hicks contractions everyone talks about. Well as an hour went by - It was very obvious that these contractions were about 3 minutes apart. ummm yeah, it scared me a little - only because I had no idea what caused them or what I should do about it. I've read that random contractions are normal, but I've also read if you can time them then it's time for a call in to the doctor.
So at 10:30, that's what I did....the on call doctor told me to lay on my side for another hour and continue to watch them....if they were persistent or got worse, he told me to go to the hospital. Of course, an hour went by and nothing changed, so Amick and I got in the car and drove to to L&D, and I had my first encounter with triage. Of course I felt silly - b/c I was the 2nd trimester pregnant lady freaking out over nothing....but oh well - my mind was already racing, and rightly so I was worried.
They checked me in and hooked me up to all sorts of things, one being the band thingy that monitors your contractions...sure enough on the screen, there they were - every 3 minutes. After 2 hours, several tests, and a blasted catheter.....we had no answer to why this was happening..... good news was there was no dilation, and everything that was supposed to be closed, WAS! But the bad news was I was still having crazy contractions?!?!?!
So finally at 1:00am, I was given a shot of terbutaline (similar to a muscle relaxer) to stop the contractions, and sure enough 15 minutes later, they were gone. By 2:30am we were home, and thanks to a sleeping pill, I was able to get some sleep.
All that and a follow up call to my doctor confirmed that the contractions were brought on by stress & dehydration? what????
Me and water now have a renewed relationship - because between now and November, I DO NOT want to experience that again.
I also had a chat with baby Isaak and my uterus.....letting them know to PLEASE hang tight for a couple more months.
So, here's the verse I'm clinging to after all of that:
Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
(The message version is good too =)
There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish
WHEW!!!!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
we're making progress...
More fun updates ...we picked a pattern for our pack n play & travel system.
We went with Eddie Bauer, and a super classy design!!! It was between this and a Graco design, but the material and sturdiness of the Eddie Bauer was soooo much better! By the way, they look so much better in person (good ol' Target). For some reason the pictures make it look gray, it's more like brown & cream.
YAY, I can't wait to have them at home and play with them. haha.
In other news, we are ordering paint samples today for the room! YAY
.....and I officially have less than 100 days to go. (96 to be exact)
I am so excited!
We went with Eddie Bauer, and a super classy design!!! It was between this and a Graco design, but the material and sturdiness of the Eddie Bauer was soooo much better! By the way, they look so much better in person (good ol' Target). For some reason the pictures make it look gray, it's more like brown & cream.
YAY, I can't wait to have them at home and play with them. haha.
In other news, we are ordering paint samples today for the room! YAY
.....and I officially have less than 100 days to go. (96 to be exact)
I am so excited!
Friday, August 1, 2008
Project Nursery begins!
Now that baby has a name, baby has to have a place to sleep!!!! Yay for Nursery planning!
Amick and I have semi-decided on what we want to do! (a big relief to me). After going back and forth on which room to use, we've decided to use our back room aka "guest bedroom" as Isaak's nursery. We were able to sell the bed (for a good price I might add, *thanks to craigslist*), and we got an amazing deal on a futon which will go in the office for now.
Which leaves us with an almost empty room - a blank canvas if you will - sooooo, let "Project Nursery" begin!!!
The biggest hurdle for us was bedding.... if you know Amick and I well at all, or if you've been to our house, you know that we both have very modern/contemporary taste. We agree on most everything as far as decorating goes. Which made nursery planning a bit easier. Here is what we agreed on:
***
Neither of us wanted a theme (i.e. Noah's Ark, sports, cars, animals, safari, etc......) There's nothing wrong with themes, I've seen hundreds of cute ones, it's just not for us - this time around.
***
We have a small house - so we decided that white furniture would be the most appropriate, especially in helping make the nursery look bigger.
***
After looking at a ton of color options.....we've decided to navigate away from the traditional baby blue, and go for a light light teal color. The exact color hasn't been decided....but we have a general idea of what we want.
That being said, here is what we've 95% decided to use as our bedding.....I love it, and I think that it will fit us and baby Isaak PERFECTLY! It's soft enough for baby, and contemporary enough to fit right in with the rest of the house!!! Plus it goes great with white furniture! I've had a couple people flat out tell me they didn't like it, and right before I let my feelings get hurt, I realized......it's not their house, or their baby, Amick and I love it - and that's all that matters, WOO HOO!!!!
This picture gives you an idea of what we'd like the room to 'sort of' look like, (wall color is fabulous) - I can just imagine walking into a room like that and feeling so clean and refreshed.
This picture gives you an idea of what it will look like with white furniture...beautiful, just beautiful!!! (FYI, for some reason, Target makes this bedding look more blue, but it has more of a teal base (see above)
There you have it....for now =)
Dear baby Isaak,
I hope you know how much we love you already. I really hope you will like your room. Please stay put for at least another 3 months so that we can make sure everything is ready for you! Oh, and when you get here you might just see a guitar picture somewhere in your room, that is because daddy wants you to grow up to love it as much as he does! So, even if it doesn't match, just tell him that it looks great, and that you love it right where it is!
Can't wait to meet you.
Love, mommy.
Amick and I have semi-decided on what we want to do! (a big relief to me). After going back and forth on which room to use, we've decided to use our back room aka "guest bedroom" as Isaak's nursery. We were able to sell the bed (for a good price I might add, *thanks to craigslist*), and we got an amazing deal on a futon which will go in the office for now.
Which leaves us with an almost empty room - a blank canvas if you will - sooooo, let "Project Nursery" begin!!!
The biggest hurdle for us was bedding.... if you know Amick and I well at all, or if you've been to our house, you know that we both have very modern/contemporary taste. We agree on most everything as far as decorating goes. Which made nursery planning a bit easier. Here is what we agreed on:
***
Neither of us wanted a theme (i.e. Noah's Ark, sports, cars, animals, safari, etc......) There's nothing wrong with themes, I've seen hundreds of cute ones, it's just not for us - this time around.
***
We have a small house - so we decided that white furniture would be the most appropriate, especially in helping make the nursery look bigger.
***
After looking at a ton of color options.....we've decided to navigate away from the traditional baby blue, and go for a light light teal color. The exact color hasn't been decided....but we have a general idea of what we want.
That being said, here is what we've 95% decided to use as our bedding.....I love it, and I think that it will fit us and baby Isaak PERFECTLY! It's soft enough for baby, and contemporary enough to fit right in with the rest of the house!!! Plus it goes great with white furniture! I've had a couple people flat out tell me they didn't like it, and right before I let my feelings get hurt, I realized......it's not their house, or their baby, Amick and I love it - and that's all that matters, WOO HOO!!!!
This picture gives you an idea of what we'd like the room to 'sort of' look like, (wall color is fabulous) - I can just imagine walking into a room like that and feeling so clean and refreshed.
This picture gives you an idea of what it will look like with white furniture...beautiful, just beautiful!!! (FYI, for some reason, Target makes this bedding look more blue, but it has more of a teal base (see above)
There you have it....for now =)
Dear baby Isaak,
I hope you know how much we love you already. I really hope you will like your room. Please stay put for at least another 3 months so that we can make sure everything is ready for you! Oh, and when you get here you might just see a guitar picture somewhere in your room, that is because daddy wants you to grow up to love it as much as he does! So, even if it doesn't match, just tell him that it looks great, and that you love it right where it is!
Can't wait to meet you.
Love, mommy.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
and his name shall be.......
Thanks to everyone who posted such wonderful advice on my previous registry post....I feel a lot better now having heard a lot of your opinions. We still haven't finished registering, but my motto right now is "step by step". We'll tackle the feeding/bottle section at Target on our next trip....say a prayer for us =).
Well, Mommy and Daddy-to-be have made some big decisions over the past couple weeks, and I figured it'd be good to announce them over the next few days! Today's announcement is obviously the biggest, and I'm super excited.
Our little guy has a name...see banner above =). Now, I know some of you might have gotten attached to "charlie" which was his nickname for awhile, but his real name will fit him perfectly, I just know it.
In November, we will welcome baby Isaak into the world. (Yes, that is Isaak with a "K"). Unfortunately we have no middle name yet....we're still working on that. (We welcome any suggestions, if you're a pro at middle names =). I have a couple ideas, so does hubby, but we can't agree on any of them! It's a miracle we agreed on a first name.
Isaak, (obviously a variant of Isaac), is Hebrew in Origin, and means: He laughs. Laughter. Child of laughter. 'Isaac' in the Bible was also the promised son to Abraham and Sarah....just as baby "Isaak" will be our promise.
We love him so much already, and can't wait for him to be here!!!!
More fun announcements to come....
Well, Mommy and Daddy-to-be have made some big decisions over the past couple weeks, and I figured it'd be good to announce them over the next few days! Today's announcement is obviously the biggest, and I'm super excited.
Our little guy has a name...see banner above =). Now, I know some of you might have gotten attached to "charlie" which was his nickname for awhile, but his real name will fit him perfectly, I just know it.
In November, we will welcome baby Isaak into the world. (Yes, that is Isaak with a "K"). Unfortunately we have no middle name yet....we're still working on that. (We welcome any suggestions, if you're a pro at middle names =). I have a couple ideas, so does hubby, but we can't agree on any of them! It's a miracle we agreed on a first name.
Isaak, (obviously a variant of Isaac), is Hebrew in Origin, and means: He laughs. Laughter. Child of laughter. 'Isaac' in the Bible was also the promised son to Abraham and Sarah....just as baby "Isaak" will be our promise.
We love him so much already, and can't wait for him to be here!!!!
More fun announcements to come....
Thursday, July 24, 2008
The ever awaited belly pics... (drum roll)
Sorry for the insane delay =)...I've had them all along!
Enjoy!!! (sorry they are so dark)
12 weeks
16 weeks
18 weeks
20 weeks
24 weeks
I'll end with a front shot, taken by the pro photographer herself =)...I felt like one of those myspace kids who takes 500 pictures of themselves to get one good one for their profile page, haha....it seems like the belly came out of nowhere (hence why I am making the 'suprised face') Anyway, that's all for now..
Enjoy!!! (sorry they are so dark)
12 weeks
16 weeks
18 weeks
20 weeks
24 weeks
I'll end with a front shot, taken by the pro photographer herself =)...I felt like one of those myspace kids who takes 500 pictures of themselves to get one good one for their profile page, haha....it seems like the belly came out of nowhere (hence why I am making the 'suprised face') Anyway, that's all for now..
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I'm not overwhelmed...really..... (**#$+_#_)%+)%*$(*%
OK, maybe I am, just a little.
OK....... A LOT!!!!!!!!!
I've never been a mom, never really been that close to any moms for it to rub off on me either. Here I am facing my most difficult task yet....registering! And of course, hubby is as clueless as I am.
I know - some of you had you're registry planned since you were six, you knew you'd use Dr. Browns, you knew the lotions, pack n play patterns, car seats, pumps, and pacifiers...it's all been planned, well forever!
Not so much for me...I just know I want to be a mom, and I know that I'll love this baby more than anything, but everything else is going to be part of the ride.
So....
to those who have been there,
to those who know it all,
to those that may just have one piece of advice,
to those who really did plan their registry 15 years ago,
and to anyone else who cares, here's my first request for advice:
I completely respect each opinion, and trust me I do know that everyone is different, and each baby is different....so with that in mind, give it your best shot =).
1. What did you register for that you realize now, you COULD NOT have lived with out.
2. What did you register for that you NEVER used.
3. Bouncer or Swing or both?
4. Diapers, which brand and why. (or does it even matter)
5. Boppy, Bumbo and all these other new creations... what do you think?
6. Baby Monitors...?
7. Diaper Genie or Diaper Champ? (oooh a tough one, I know)
8. Wipe warmer, worth it?
9. Just a random piece of advice....for fun =)
For those with never ending advice, feel free to email it over =)
OK....... A LOT!!!!!!!!!
I've never been a mom, never really been that close to any moms for it to rub off on me either. Here I am facing my most difficult task yet....registering! And of course, hubby is as clueless as I am.
I know - some of you had you're registry planned since you were six, you knew you'd use Dr. Browns, you knew the lotions, pack n play patterns, car seats, pumps, and pacifiers...it's all been planned, well forever!
Not so much for me...I just know I want to be a mom, and I know that I'll love this baby more than anything, but everything else is going to be part of the ride.
So....
to those who have been there,
to those who know it all,
to those that may just have one piece of advice,
to those who really did plan their registry 15 years ago,
and to anyone else who cares, here's my first request for advice:
I completely respect each opinion, and trust me I do know that everyone is different, and each baby is different....so with that in mind, give it your best shot =).
1. What did you register for that you realize now, you COULD NOT have lived with out.
2. What did you register for that you NEVER used.
3. Bouncer or Swing or both?
4. Diapers, which brand and why. (or does it even matter)
5. Boppy, Bumbo and all these other new creations... what do you think?
6. Baby Monitors...?
7. Diaper Genie or Diaper Champ? (oooh a tough one, I know)
8. Wipe warmer, worth it?
9. Just a random piece of advice....for fun =)
For those with never ending advice, feel free to email it over =)
Thursday, July 17, 2008
baby randomness
warning: This post will be random and jumbled, with no key point or outline =).
I'm sorry that I don't update as much as I should. I have so many thoughts that go through my head every day about this pregnancy, I just need to make it a habit to blog it out....even if it is only 2 lines.
Also, I'm making a promise to blog-land (and to my good friend Morgs)....by next week you WILL see an updated belly pic on here!!! So check back in soon. The belly is growing, and I LOVE IT!
~*~*~*~*~*~ APPOINTMENT UPDATE ~*~*~*~*~*~
My appointment last Friday was fabulous, in and out in less than 20 minutes:
-gained 5 pounds (12 pounds total)
-baby Cutler hit the pound mark! woo hoo
-everything looked good, measurements and all
-next appointment is my last 4 weeker, and then I'm going every 2 weeks
~*~*~*~*~*~ SO MUCH TO DO ~*~*~*~*~*~
Over the past 2 weeks, my mind has been constantly going over all of the things I'm going to have to start doing. As exciting as it is, it's also a little scary. But for now, here's what's on my mind:
-I need to register, I'm hoping to find a list on the internet somewhere that I can use as a guide, because uhhhhh, I have no idea what you need for a baby.
-I need to get some more maternity clothes. I have done really well so far, and only bought a few items, but I'm officially out of all my old pants/shorts....and I've got to just give in and get a few more things. I'll feel better when I do.
-I need to finalize our plan for the nursery, I've decided to by-pass the themed rooms, just because there's none that I'm in love with. We'll probably go with a classic blue/white or green/white color scheme, and just piece things together as we go. I want to fall in love with some bedding, but none have really caught my eye.
-I need to compile addresses for my amazing friends who have offered to throw showers for me, it's coming up fast.
~*~*~*~*~*~ ANNOYING =) ~*~*~*~*~*~
Things people have said to me over the last 2 months that were ANNOYING:
"You sure you're ready for this, maybe you should take my 2 kids home with you for a day to prepare"
(My response: No, I don't want to take your kids home, I have no desire to compare your children to what mine will be like one day. Chances are my kids will be nothing like yours. I am fully aware of the responsibility and changes that come along with starting a family, and guess what, ready or not....we'll make it work, have a nice day)
"You're due in November? ooooh, you're going to be pregnant in the middle of the summer"
(My response: Really? Thanks for letting me know, I had no idea....I actually was thinking I'd be pregnant in January. In all seriousness, I love the summer, I love the sunshine, I love the beach, and I love being tan, so yes, I'll be pregnant during the summer, and will take full advantage of that, bikini, big belly, sweat and all!!!!)
"Wow, you look like you're going to pop any day now" (from crazy man at gas station)
(My response: Actually sir, I'm only 4 months pregnant, but thanks for kindly reminding me of how huge I look now, I can't imagine what people will say when I actually am near my due date)
~*~*~*~*~*~ WHOA!! ~*~*~*~*~*~
I will end by stating that I officially have less than 4 months to go!
I'm sorry that I don't update as much as I should. I have so many thoughts that go through my head every day about this pregnancy, I just need to make it a habit to blog it out....even if it is only 2 lines.
Also, I'm making a promise to blog-land (and to my good friend Morgs)....by next week you WILL see an updated belly pic on here!!! So check back in soon. The belly is growing, and I LOVE IT!
~*~*~*~*~*~ APPOINTMENT UPDATE ~*~*~*~*~*~
My appointment last Friday was fabulous, in and out in less than 20 minutes:
-gained 5 pounds (12 pounds total)
-baby Cutler hit the pound mark! woo hoo
-everything looked good, measurements and all
-next appointment is my last 4 weeker, and then I'm going every 2 weeks
~*~*~*~*~*~ SO MUCH TO DO ~*~*~*~*~*~
Over the past 2 weeks, my mind has been constantly going over all of the things I'm going to have to start doing. As exciting as it is, it's also a little scary. But for now, here's what's on my mind:
-I need to register, I'm hoping to find a list on the internet somewhere that I can use as a guide, because uhhhhh, I have no idea what you need for a baby.
-I need to get some more maternity clothes. I have done really well so far, and only bought a few items, but I'm officially out of all my old pants/shorts....and I've got to just give in and get a few more things. I'll feel better when I do.
-I need to finalize our plan for the nursery, I've decided to by-pass the themed rooms, just because there's none that I'm in love with. We'll probably go with a classic blue/white or green/white color scheme, and just piece things together as we go. I want to fall in love with some bedding, but none have really caught my eye.
-I need to compile addresses for my amazing friends who have offered to throw showers for me, it's coming up fast.
~*~*~*~*~*~ ANNOYING =) ~*~*~*~*~*~
Things people have said to me over the last 2 months that were ANNOYING:
"You sure you're ready for this, maybe you should take my 2 kids home with you for a day to prepare"
(My response: No, I don't want to take your kids home, I have no desire to compare your children to what mine will be like one day. Chances are my kids will be nothing like yours. I am fully aware of the responsibility and changes that come along with starting a family, and guess what, ready or not....we'll make it work, have a nice day)
"You're due in November? ooooh, you're going to be pregnant in the middle of the summer"
(My response: Really? Thanks for letting me know, I had no idea....I actually was thinking I'd be pregnant in January. In all seriousness, I love the summer, I love the sunshine, I love the beach, and I love being tan, so yes, I'll be pregnant during the summer, and will take full advantage of that, bikini, big belly, sweat and all!!!!)
"Wow, you look like you're going to pop any day now" (from crazy man at gas station)
(My response: Actually sir, I'm only 4 months pregnant, but thanks for kindly reminding me of how huge I look now, I can't imagine what people will say when I actually am near my due date)
~*~*~*~*~*~ WHOA!! ~*~*~*~*~*~
I will end by stating that I officially have less than 4 months to go!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
21 weeks and loving it!
Sooo...there's this boy,
he doesn't have a name yet,
but he's kind of a big deal!
oh, and I love him.
Over the past week, this baby has become such a reality to me. I was laying on the couch the other night watching tv, and my baby was just rolling around all over the place. It was like a party in my tummy. (A good party, haha). Each time that he moved I just smiled so big, and my mind would wander to so many thoughts of what he will look like, how I will feel when I see/hold him for the first time, what he must be thinking about all day long while he's in my tummy... but more than all that, I just can't imagine how much more I will love him, if I already love him this much already. It's beautiful!
So, here are 5 random things:
1. The other day, I walked outside while Amick was mowing the lawn, and our neighbor walked by, he looked at me and said - "Girl, you been eatin watermelons?" I smiled, thinking to myself: "This is the only time in my life that I will take that as a compliment".
2. For the past few weeks I've been to the gym 2-3 times a week. I go on my lunch break and walk on the treadmill and work out my arms. It probably hasn't made that much of a difference - but I really do feel good afterwords. I'm going to try and stick with it.
3. Well, the inside of my belly button is making itself known. I'm thinking I might have a popper. We'll see.
4. I love my tummy, I love pregnancy, I love everything about it. Honestly, every week I feel better and better. I love that I still have 4.5 months to go, I'm not in a hurry for this to be over, I'm enjoying it....backaches and all!
5. I've gained probably about 10 pounds so far....but you know what, I'm still embracing my two piece!!! Yep, I said it. I'm one of those people. It's so funny whenever people comment about my pregnancy the first thing they say is "Ohh, you're gonna be pregnant in the middle of the summer...poor you". POOR ME???? no way, that's good for me! I love the sunshine, I love laying out with friends (especially other pregnant friends - Veronica and Tonya =), and I love being tan! And if it's too hot outside, guess what, I'm never too far away from a well air-conditioned building.
Sooo...here's to watermelons, treadmills, popped out belly buttons, backaches, and YES - two-piece swim suits!!!!
I LOVE LIFE!
he doesn't have a name yet,
but he's kind of a big deal!
oh, and I love him.
Over the past week, this baby has become such a reality to me. I was laying on the couch the other night watching tv, and my baby was just rolling around all over the place. It was like a party in my tummy. (A good party, haha). Each time that he moved I just smiled so big, and my mind would wander to so many thoughts of what he will look like, how I will feel when I see/hold him for the first time, what he must be thinking about all day long while he's in my tummy... but more than all that, I just can't imagine how much more I will love him, if I already love him this much already. It's beautiful!
So, here are 5 random things:
1. The other day, I walked outside while Amick was mowing the lawn, and our neighbor walked by, he looked at me and said - "Girl, you been eatin watermelons?" I smiled, thinking to myself: "This is the only time in my life that I will take that as a compliment".
2. For the past few weeks I've been to the gym 2-3 times a week. I go on my lunch break and walk on the treadmill and work out my arms. It probably hasn't made that much of a difference - but I really do feel good afterwords. I'm going to try and stick with it.
3. Well, the inside of my belly button is making itself known. I'm thinking I might have a popper. We'll see.
4. I love my tummy, I love pregnancy, I love everything about it. Honestly, every week I feel better and better. I love that I still have 4.5 months to go, I'm not in a hurry for this to be over, I'm enjoying it....backaches and all!
5. I've gained probably about 10 pounds so far....but you know what, I'm still embracing my two piece!!! Yep, I said it. I'm one of those people. It's so funny whenever people comment about my pregnancy the first thing they say is "Ohh, you're gonna be pregnant in the middle of the summer...poor you". POOR ME???? no way, that's good for me! I love the sunshine, I love laying out with friends (especially other pregnant friends - Veronica and Tonya =), and I love being tan! And if it's too hot outside, guess what, I'm never too far away from a well air-conditioned building.
Sooo...here's to watermelons, treadmills, popped out belly buttons, backaches, and YES - two-piece swim suits!!!!
I LOVE LIFE!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
I'm going to be an aunt
Most of you already know, but I decided to make it official on the Cutler Baby blog =).
My brother and sister-in-law are expecting their first baby in January! The Raney family will officially begin a new generation.
It's so amazing to think about the new life stages we are all entering together. All I can picture is babies playing on their blankets together, family get togethers, cousins and more cousins. I grew up with my cousins as my best friends. I longed for the summers and holidays where we all got to "spend the night" at our grandparents together. We'd take all of Mimi and Papa's sheets out of their linen closet, and turn their beautiful livingroom into the best tent fort you'd ever seen. We'd sleep under there, tell stories, talk about Jesus, and laugh until we couldn't anymore.
I'm going to be especially grateful for this Raney baby on the way! He/she will only be two months apart from our little one, and I'm certain they will be best friends. I'm already looking forward to seeing my brother's face when he becomes a father. I can't wait to see what this little guy/girl will look like. It's so great!
So as I add another 'baby blog' to my "babies on the way" list, this one will hold a special place in my heart.
Check out the Raney baby blog, and send your prayers and best wishes their way!!! =)
www.babyraney.blogspot.com
To my little niece/nephew:
"Stay strong little one!!! You've got Raney blood in you, and that combined with your momma's charm will certainly make something good, I love you already"
My brother and sister-in-law are expecting their first baby in January! The Raney family will officially begin a new generation.
It's so amazing to think about the new life stages we are all entering together. All I can picture is babies playing on their blankets together, family get togethers, cousins and more cousins. I grew up with my cousins as my best friends. I longed for the summers and holidays where we all got to "spend the night" at our grandparents together. We'd take all of Mimi and Papa's sheets out of their linen closet, and turn their beautiful livingroom into the best tent fort you'd ever seen. We'd sleep under there, tell stories, talk about Jesus, and laugh until we couldn't anymore.
I'm going to be especially grateful for this Raney baby on the way! He/she will only be two months apart from our little one, and I'm certain they will be best friends. I'm already looking forward to seeing my brother's face when he becomes a father. I can't wait to see what this little guy/girl will look like. It's so great!
So as I add another 'baby blog' to my "babies on the way" list, this one will hold a special place in my heart.
Check out the Raney baby blog, and send your prayers and best wishes their way!!! =)
www.babyraney.blogspot.com
To my little niece/nephew:
"Stay strong little one!!! You've got Raney blood in you, and that combined with your momma's charm will certainly make something good, I love you already"
Monday, June 23, 2008
Alright little guy, we're half way there!
Have I really made it half way through? Hooray!
I know that an update is overdue - and I'm sorry it's taken me this long to post....last week was a crazy busy week.
Amick and I went to see a peri-natal specialist this past Tuesday - the main reason was so the doctor could do an echocardiogram on the baby's heart. Basically it ended up being a very very detailed ultrasound. We spent time with the doctor, a genetic counselor & the ultrasound tech - all who remained very very positive about our situation.
We were told that the "bright spots" on the heart are just additional tissue/muscle that was formed with the heart. As far as the doctor is concerned, there should be no affect on the baby's heart or life during or after pregnancy!
(Answer to prayer #1)
I went through the most detailed ultrasound ever, the doctor checked every single possible part of my little baby's body, and found NO OTHER indications of abnormalities or anything out of the ordinary. He said that everything else looked perfect, all 10 ounces of him!
(Answer to prayer #2)
The doctor also called us back on the blood tests (quad screen) that we had done to test for chromosome abnormalities (downs included), and they all came back negative!!!! Praise God!
(Answer to prayer #3).
For the first time in my life, I had a peace about a situation before I knew the outcome....for me that is huge because I was created to worry (ask anyone I know, haha). But I believe through the prayers of our friends and family - that God truly wrapped me in His arms through this entire thing. When I called my dad to tell him the tests came back negative he said, "Well you don't sound excited" I responded, "I am excited, it's just that I already had a peace about this before the doctor even called" What a miracle for me!
Matthew 6:27 "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life"
So I stand here today, and claim my answers to prayer! I truly do believe that God is in the business of being glorified, and sometimes he orchestrates things, so that He alone can get the glory! I guess that means that we're just along for the ride.
Thank you so much for your prayers through everything, it has meant so much to Amick and I!
I know that an update is overdue - and I'm sorry it's taken me this long to post....last week was a crazy busy week.
Amick and I went to see a peri-natal specialist this past Tuesday - the main reason was so the doctor could do an echocardiogram on the baby's heart. Basically it ended up being a very very detailed ultrasound. We spent time with the doctor, a genetic counselor & the ultrasound tech - all who remained very very positive about our situation.
We were told that the "bright spots" on the heart are just additional tissue/muscle that was formed with the heart. As far as the doctor is concerned, there should be no affect on the baby's heart or life during or after pregnancy!
(Answer to prayer #1)
I went through the most detailed ultrasound ever, the doctor checked every single possible part of my little baby's body, and found NO OTHER indications of abnormalities or anything out of the ordinary. He said that everything else looked perfect, all 10 ounces of him!
(Answer to prayer #2)
The doctor also called us back on the blood tests (quad screen) that we had done to test for chromosome abnormalities (downs included), and they all came back negative!!!! Praise God!
(Answer to prayer #3).
For the first time in my life, I had a peace about a situation before I knew the outcome....for me that is huge because I was created to worry (ask anyone I know, haha). But I believe through the prayers of our friends and family - that God truly wrapped me in His arms through this entire thing. When I called my dad to tell him the tests came back negative he said, "Well you don't sound excited" I responded, "I am excited, it's just that I already had a peace about this before the doctor even called" What a miracle for me!
Matthew 6:27 "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life"
So I stand here today, and claim my answers to prayer! I truly do believe that God is in the business of being glorified, and sometimes he orchestrates things, so that He alone can get the glory! I guess that means that we're just along for the ride.
Thank you so much for your prayers through everything, it has meant so much to Amick and I!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
On earth as it is in heaven
We are believing and claiming -in faith- for a miraculous report from the doctor today. My appointment is at 1:00pm today, so if you read this please remember us and Baby Cutler in your prayers.
We are praying for complete healing in his heart, and we are believing that is what the doctor will tell us! In Jesus' Name.
What power we have in His Name!!!
Thank you already to those of you that have joined us in praying. We cannot thank you enough!
We are praying for complete healing in his heart, and we are believing that is what the doctor will tell us! In Jesus' Name.
What power we have in His Name!!!
Thank you already to those of you that have joined us in praying. We cannot thank you enough!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Appointment update - prayer request!
Had my appointment today...
Good things:
- it's still a boy!
- I gained no weight in 4 weeks, yay.
- baby weighs 9 oz.
- anatomy is all there and in the right place.
- i've started feeling little movements over the last few days.
Not-so-good things:
The ultrasound revealed calcification deposits in 2 of the 4 chambers of my little baby's heart. My doctor said this happens in about 5-6% of pregnancies - and normally raises a flag to the possibility of downs syndrome. He said that in most cases the issue resolves itself, but he is still concerned (especially because the buildup is in two chambers not just one). I had some additional blood work done today so that they could check more into the possibility of downs, and then I will be going to see a specialist on Tuesday for a fetal echocardiogram (sp?) - so that they can get a better picture of the baby's heart and diagnose the problem.
My doctor sounded very positive, and repeated that most often this is a situation that resolves itself. But even still, regardless of the statistics, how many other people have had the problem, and what the positives are....it still is extremely scary to me. I think I'm really just in shock, because I had finally started to get past a lot of my previous fears. I had finally started to open up and get excited. I hate the thought of something being wrong with my little guy, because I already love him so much.
Still - I know that God is God, and I am not. He is in control and truly has been since day one of this pregnancy.
I am asking you all to pray. Pray that this situation DOES resolve itself, and that my God, the ultimate healer is glorified. Pray that when I go in on Tuesday for my appointment, that the doctor has to wonder why I came, because there is nothing there for him to diagnose. I've seen it happen before, and I believe it can happen again. If God is for us, who can be against us?
I will update again on Tuesday.
Good things:
- it's still a boy!
- I gained no weight in 4 weeks, yay.
- baby weighs 9 oz.
- anatomy is all there and in the right place.
- i've started feeling little movements over the last few days.
Not-so-good things:
The ultrasound revealed calcification deposits in 2 of the 4 chambers of my little baby's heart. My doctor said this happens in about 5-6% of pregnancies - and normally raises a flag to the possibility of downs syndrome. He said that in most cases the issue resolves itself, but he is still concerned (especially because the buildup is in two chambers not just one). I had some additional blood work done today so that they could check more into the possibility of downs, and then I will be going to see a specialist on Tuesday for a fetal echocardiogram (sp?) - so that they can get a better picture of the baby's heart and diagnose the problem.
My doctor sounded very positive, and repeated that most often this is a situation that resolves itself. But even still, regardless of the statistics, how many other people have had the problem, and what the positives are....it still is extremely scary to me. I think I'm really just in shock, because I had finally started to get past a lot of my previous fears. I had finally started to open up and get excited. I hate the thought of something being wrong with my little guy, because I already love him so much.
Still - I know that God is God, and I am not. He is in control and truly has been since day one of this pregnancy.
I am asking you all to pray. Pray that this situation DOES resolve itself, and that my God, the ultimate healer is glorified. Pray that when I go in on Tuesday for my appointment, that the doctor has to wonder why I came, because there is nothing there for him to diagnose. I've seen it happen before, and I believe it can happen again. If God is for us, who can be against us?
I will update again on Tuesday.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
18 weeks here I come!
...well in 3 days anyway.
For me this is awesome. My tummy finally decided to make itself known, actually last Wednesday as a matter of fact. I promise - I got up that morning and thought, "ok, that was not there yesterday!" (yes, belly pics to come....SOON!!!)
My favorite tan tank top that I wear under everything, was retired yesterday (for the next 5 months anyway). I wore it to work yesterday and realized it was time to put it away. As Veronica would say, I looked like POOH....see photo below. (side note - why does he wear that little red shirt that has always been too small for him????)
And to answer the most popular question right now - Nope, we have no idea what we're naming this little guy inside me. I told hubby that I'm calling him "charlie" until we decide....in hopes that would hurry things up. Well it hasn't - we still don't have a clue. Honestly though, I'm ok with that...this is not something that should be rushed. I mean a NAME is huge, it's a lifelong commitment that should not be taken lightly. So, "charlie" will hang out nameless until we're both in love with a name =)!
I am starting to feel a little "soreness" probably just from things stretching and growing, I am definitely tired A LOT, and indigestion is making itself known, but guess what, I LOVE IT! I love every minute of it. I'll take Tums, I'll get more sleep, I'll sit more, but I'll take it all and then some for the amazing miracle that I've been blessed with. I promised myself that I would not take a day of this pregnancy for granted. I DO NOT say that in a boastful way...and I never want to come across that way - I still feel like it's something surreal and something that I don't deserve to experience, but I just know from the road I went down to get here, that this is not "just another 9 months" - this is an answer to prayer, an absolute miracle, and I hope and pray that God will allow Amick and I to be humbled enough to be the parents He wants us to be. And I earnestly pray that other women with the same desire see that miracle in their lives as well...SOONER than later!
I will end with a photo....yep, me eatin a pickle (no, not with ice cream)....it was a good pickle too....pregnancy - such bliss!
For me this is awesome. My tummy finally decided to make itself known, actually last Wednesday as a matter of fact. I promise - I got up that morning and thought, "ok, that was not there yesterday!" (yes, belly pics to come....SOON!!!)
My favorite tan tank top that I wear under everything, was retired yesterday (for the next 5 months anyway). I wore it to work yesterday and realized it was time to put it away. As Veronica would say, I looked like POOH....see photo below. (side note - why does he wear that little red shirt that has always been too small for him????)
And to answer the most popular question right now - Nope, we have no idea what we're naming this little guy inside me. I told hubby that I'm calling him "charlie" until we decide....in hopes that would hurry things up. Well it hasn't - we still don't have a clue. Honestly though, I'm ok with that...this is not something that should be rushed. I mean a NAME is huge, it's a lifelong commitment that should not be taken lightly. So, "charlie" will hang out nameless until we're both in love with a name =)!
I am starting to feel a little "soreness" probably just from things stretching and growing, I am definitely tired A LOT, and indigestion is making itself known, but guess what, I LOVE IT! I love every minute of it. I'll take Tums, I'll get more sleep, I'll sit more, but I'll take it all and then some for the amazing miracle that I've been blessed with. I promised myself that I would not take a day of this pregnancy for granted. I DO NOT say that in a boastful way...and I never want to come across that way - I still feel like it's something surreal and something that I don't deserve to experience, but I just know from the road I went down to get here, that this is not "just another 9 months" - this is an answer to prayer, an absolute miracle, and I hope and pray that God will allow Amick and I to be humbled enough to be the parents He wants us to be. And I earnestly pray that other women with the same desire see that miracle in their lives as well...SOONER than later!
I will end with a photo....yep, me eatin a pickle (no, not with ice cream)....it was a good pickle too....pregnancy - such bliss!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Alright, it's show off time!!!!
Let me start out by confirming how excited Amick and I are. Yesterday was absolutely wonderful. The ultrasound place was sooo laid back and let everyone come in the room for the show, so it was just a blast! The hardest part was waiting until 5:00pm to find out! But we got there, and little guy thought he'd be funny and cross his legs at first, well that didn't last long, and 2 minutes into the ultrasound, the tech said "It looks like a boy"...I kindly asked her to tell me how sure she was, and after another few minutes, she said "OK, it's a 100%, you've got a boy", and then we all went crazy!!! My family started making the calls. We got to spend over an hour in there, watching this amazing little guy move, and flip, and wave, and show off, it was fabulous! He's got 10 fingers and 10 toes =)
We then went to the mall, and my parents each picked out something for the baby, and we all went to dinner to celebrate.
It was great!
Now for the fun part, the pictures!!! ENJOY!
#1: First, here's your proof that it's definitely a boy!!!! No doubt about it.
#2: A beautiful face shot of our little boy!
#3: Perfect profile picture, and he even threw in a wave for us! Hi little baby!
#4: Another wave, yep 5 fingers!!
#5: I saved my favorite for last...this is the cutest thing I've ever seen, our little guy is sucking his thumb. He is soooo precious!
Little baby, we love you so much already! Praise God!
We then went to the mall, and my parents each picked out something for the baby, and we all went to dinner to celebrate.
It was great!
Now for the fun part, the pictures!!! ENJOY!
#1: First, here's your proof that it's definitely a boy!!!! No doubt about it.
#2: A beautiful face shot of our little boy!
#3: Perfect profile picture, and he even threw in a wave for us! Hi little baby!
#4: Another wave, yep 5 fingers!!
#5: I saved my favorite for last...this is the cutest thing I've ever seen, our little guy is sucking his thumb. He is soooo precious!
Little baby, we love you so much already! Praise God!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Today is the day
Just so everyone knows, I have the latest possible appointment known to man, so that means 3.5 hours to go!!!!
AHHHHHHH, I really can't stand it!
Boy or Girl? Boy or Girl? Boy or Girl??????
AHHHHHHH, I really can't stand it!
Boy or Girl? Boy or Girl? Boy or Girl??????
Monday, May 19, 2008
8 days to go!!!! WHOA
I can't believe we could know what we're having in just about a week! I can't even begin to think how we're going to respond. Either way we're going to be sooooo surprised, excited & happy!
The number one question we hear right now is "What do you want?" Well here's our answer..."We don't care". Obviously, I love the idea of a baby girl, and Amick loves the idea of a baby boy, but isn't that how it normally goes??? No matter what it is, I am pregnant, there is a healthy baby growing inside of me, it's going to 50% of the greatest person I've ever known (My hubby of course), and because of that I couldn't ask for anything more....boy or girl!
All i know right now, is there is going to be a family reunion in that ultrasound room next Tuesday, I have family coming from all over the place haha....they might have to come in shifts.
But it's going to be a wonderful day!
The number one question we hear right now is "What do you want?" Well here's our answer..."We don't care". Obviously, I love the idea of a baby girl, and Amick loves the idea of a baby boy, but isn't that how it normally goes??? No matter what it is, I am pregnant, there is a healthy baby growing inside of me, it's going to 50% of the greatest person I've ever known (My hubby of course), and because of that I couldn't ask for anything more....boy or girl!
All i know right now, is there is going to be a family reunion in that ultrasound room next Tuesday, I have family coming from all over the place haha....they might have to come in shifts.
But it's going to be a wonderful day!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
100 Days "aka" - 14 weeks 2 days
So, I don't feel any different this morning, but my lovely baby ticker revealed to me this morning that I have been pregnant for 100 days! That sounds amazing, and feels like such an accomplishment.
I will tell you that I think pregnancy is the most amazing thing ever, it is beautiful, miraculous, and a time that I believe should be cherished, no matter what. (Right now is normally when all of the pregnancy experts chime in and say "Oh just wait a few more months, you won't be saying that anymore" blah blah blah... in all honesty I say: "Shut up")
It is still so surreal to me - other than trouble sleeping and some digestion issues, I feel relatively normal. I'm not really showing yet and I don't feel any moving around yet....I just cannot wait until this miracle decides to make him or herself known by a bump or a kick! =) I cannot wait for the joys to come. Up until this point - this has only been a dream to me. Something that I watched other people experience, and only wished for myself. Even still, there are days where I tell myself this really is too good to be true. I contain my excitement, because I still think this is just a dream.
I guess it's just because I want a family more than anything!!! ANYTHING!
So here's to 100 days so far, and 180 to go!
PS. I love talking to my dad about this. He is more excited than anyone I know. He is driving all the way from Ocala in 2 weeks just to be there for my ultrasound, because he wants to be there. I love him, and I love his excitement, he is going to be the BEST grandpa EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will tell you that I think pregnancy is the most amazing thing ever, it is beautiful, miraculous, and a time that I believe should be cherished, no matter what. (Right now is normally when all of the pregnancy experts chime in and say "Oh just wait a few more months, you won't be saying that anymore" blah blah blah... in all honesty I say: "Shut up")
It is still so surreal to me - other than trouble sleeping and some digestion issues, I feel relatively normal. I'm not really showing yet and I don't feel any moving around yet....I just cannot wait until this miracle decides to make him or herself known by a bump or a kick! =) I cannot wait for the joys to come. Up until this point - this has only been a dream to me. Something that I watched other people experience, and only wished for myself. Even still, there are days where I tell myself this really is too good to be true. I contain my excitement, because I still think this is just a dream.
I guess it's just because I want a family more than anything!!! ANYTHING!
So here's to 100 days so far, and 180 to go!
PS. I love talking to my dad about this. He is more excited than anyone I know. He is driving all the way from Ocala in 2 weeks just to be there for my ultrasound, because he wants to be there. I love him, and I love his excitement, he is going to be the BEST grandpa EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
P.S.
I walked almost two miles yesterday!!! Yay for me.
I do have to give credit to hubby - I would have turned around after 1/2 mile, but he kept me going!
I do have to give credit to hubby - I would have turned around after 1/2 mile, but he kept me going!
Friday, May 9, 2008
Baby Update
Went to the doctor this morning, everything was fabulous!
We got to hear the heartbeat on the doppler, yay!
Doctor said everything looked great, and that I could expect movements in the new weeks! (WHICH I AM THRILLED ABOUT)
The only not so thrilling part was my weight gain, which I am not quite ready to disclose, I just know it was surprising and definitely a bit much for a 13 weeker!!!
Oh well...Better luck this month. Hubby said he'd walk with me, so we'll see how that goes.
Note to self...replace Whataburger with Subway!! That always helps.
This appointment was refreshing to me, because it was the first one since I stopped taking progesterone, so it's nice to know my baby is growing and sustaining on its own, without the help of a pill! Go placenta Go!!!!
God is good, ALL the time!
We got to hear the heartbeat on the doppler, yay!
Doctor said everything looked great, and that I could expect movements in the new weeks! (WHICH I AM THRILLED ABOUT)
The only not so thrilling part was my weight gain, which I am not quite ready to disclose, I just know it was surprising and definitely a bit much for a 13 weeker!!!
Oh well...Better luck this month. Hubby said he'd walk with me, so we'll see how that goes.
Note to self...replace Whataburger with Subway!! That always helps.
This appointment was refreshing to me, because it was the first one since I stopped taking progesterone, so it's nice to know my baby is growing and sustaining on its own, without the help of a pill! Go placenta Go!!!!
God is good, ALL the time!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Divine Appointment
I want to start by saying that I've tried very hard over the past 3 months to quote Isaiah 43:18-19 over and over again.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up, do you not perceive it? . . .
Not focusing on the past is something that I have struggled with so much. Each week of this pregnancy brings new excitement and fears, and it's the fears that I've been trying to push away. It's a daily battle.
But as I was thinking about all of this - several things came to mind how God has truly led Amick and I to this point, and regardless of the outcome, I can undoubtably say that He is in control. And in each of the following weeks, I have to keep reminding myself that God has brought me too far, to let me go now.
One situation in particular became clear a couple weeks ago:
(with the help of our local newspaper.)
I can remember vividly, the morning of our first miscarriage.
(To preface, I hadn't even been to see a doctor yet.)
Well, that horrible morning when I realized that something was very wrong, I started freaking out, I didn't know what to do, where to go, or how to even address the situation. I was at work and my boss quickly recommended her OB because they were nearby. In a panic, Amick and I drove right over to the doctor's office not knowing what to expect. I marched in there, crying hysterically, and begged them to help me. They immediately checked me in (never having seen me before, not even knowing anything about my situation). Well within 30 minutes I had been seen by the available doctor and the miscarriage was confirmed. He was wonderful, despite the circumstance, and Amick and I decided to stick with him for our "future endeavors". Through the next few months he called us personally and was such a help and comfort through the second miscarriage, and has been amazing through this current pregnancy.
I say all of that to say we have a great doctor!!! But we discovered him through a series of circumstances in which my opinion or decisions had no affect on the outcome. Is it a stretch to say that God had His hand in this from the beginning?...NO. I truly believe God puts us in circumstances sometimes to ensure that only He gets the glory.
Well I realized that a couple weeks ago, when I came across this article in the paper (yes, that's my doctor.)
(click on the image to read in a larger view)
Before I ever even knew the problem - God brought me to the doctor that had the exact solution. Coincidence? Not a chance.
Be assured today, that God is in control...regardless of what you're going through, or how off track your life may seem. He is above it all and really does see the big picture...so much clearer than we could ever attempt.
Be blessed!
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up, do you not perceive it? . . .
Not focusing on the past is something that I have struggled with so much. Each week of this pregnancy brings new excitement and fears, and it's the fears that I've been trying to push away. It's a daily battle.
But as I was thinking about all of this - several things came to mind how God has truly led Amick and I to this point, and regardless of the outcome, I can undoubtably say that He is in control. And in each of the following weeks, I have to keep reminding myself that God has brought me too far, to let me go now.
One situation in particular became clear a couple weeks ago:
(with the help of our local newspaper.)
I can remember vividly, the morning of our first miscarriage.
(To preface, I hadn't even been to see a doctor yet.)
Well, that horrible morning when I realized that something was very wrong, I started freaking out, I didn't know what to do, where to go, or how to even address the situation. I was at work and my boss quickly recommended her OB because they were nearby. In a panic, Amick and I drove right over to the doctor's office not knowing what to expect. I marched in there, crying hysterically, and begged them to help me. They immediately checked me in (never having seen me before, not even knowing anything about my situation). Well within 30 minutes I had been seen by the available doctor and the miscarriage was confirmed. He was wonderful, despite the circumstance, and Amick and I decided to stick with him for our "future endeavors". Through the next few months he called us personally and was such a help and comfort through the second miscarriage, and has been amazing through this current pregnancy.
I say all of that to say we have a great doctor!!! But we discovered him through a series of circumstances in which my opinion or decisions had no affect on the outcome. Is it a stretch to say that God had His hand in this from the beginning?...NO. I truly believe God puts us in circumstances sometimes to ensure that only He gets the glory.
Well I realized that a couple weeks ago, when I came across this article in the paper (yes, that's my doctor.)
(click on the image to read in a larger view)
Before I ever even knew the problem - God brought me to the doctor that had the exact solution. Coincidence? Not a chance.
Be assured today, that God is in control...regardless of what you're going through, or how off track your life may seem. He is above it all and really does see the big picture...so much clearer than we could ever attempt.
Be blessed!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Do they make cherry limeade flavored water?
I have had no crazy food cravings, obviously I'm only 12 weeks pregnant. BUT, my beverage choices have COMPLETELY CHANGED.
Here's my problem... During my 5 week long nauseous spell, I could only drink water. Well now, when I think of water, I think of being nauseous (NOT GOOD).
So here is my new list of must have beverages, I have one of each almost every day.
1. Caffiene free diet coke (I've given into soda temporarily, it makes my tummy feel just right)
2. chocolate milk (only in the mornings)
3. cherry limeade (if I get this between 2-4 it's half off, YES!)
ummm ok, so according to every pregnancy book I've looked at, you're a horrible pregnant person if you don't drink 8 cups of water a day. I try really really hard to drink at least 2 bottles of water a day...but still, it's yuck!
What am I going to do?
Here's my problem... During my 5 week long nauseous spell, I could only drink water. Well now, when I think of water, I think of being nauseous (NOT GOOD).
So here is my new list of must have beverages, I have one of each almost every day.
1. Caffiene free diet coke (I've given into soda temporarily, it makes my tummy feel just right)
2. chocolate milk (only in the mornings)
3. cherry limeade (if I get this between 2-4 it's half off, YES!)
ummm ok, so according to every pregnancy book I've looked at, you're a horrible pregnant person if you don't drink 8 cups of water a day. I try really really hard to drink at least 2 bottles of water a day...but still, it's yuck!
What am I going to do?
Friday, April 25, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Baby's first photo shoot
Here is my collection of ultrasound pictures so far.
Yesterday's ultrasound was Absolutely amazing...this little baby inside of me was moving around like crazy, kicking, moving its arms and legs all around, and turning upside down. I just sat there and watched in amazement. Something that small and intricate can actually be moving around. God is so good. I've never been so excited about something in my entire life.
Enjoy!!!!
#1: 5 week ultrasound photo (just enough to know there was actually something in there, it was my little mustard seed)
#2: 7 week ultrasound photo (this was the heartbeat day!!!)
#3: 11 week ultrasound photo (finally looks like a baby, with it's little baby mouth open, and legs in the air)
#4: 11 week booty shot, haha...this one is just for fun. The baby was turned around backwards, showing off the cute little bottom with legs straight in the air, LOVE IT!!!!! Just FYI, the little blob to the right of the booty is what's left of the yolk sac.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
ultrasounds woo hoo
I managed to make a good contact at the ultrasound school here in P-cola, AND they have a good relationship with my doctor. So Im able to go in every few weeks and sneak in an ultrasound, for free. I have one this afternoon - and I'm so excited.
And after today, I do plan on posting my ultrasound pics, and belly pics too. YAY.
And after today, I do plan on posting my ultrasound pics, and belly pics too. YAY.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Day by Day
11 weeks...wow, have I really made it this far?
One more week left in the first trimester.
I go through good days and bad days. I have days where I'm so excited I can't stand it, and then others where I try to convince myself that this really is too good to be true. This morning was kind of blah. I still have more than 2 weeks to go until my next appointment, and I just sit and wonder if everything really will be ok until then. It's sad actually, I thrive off of the appointments - because it's my confirmation that everything is ok, and there really is still a baby inside of me. But between appointments it's just an all out battle.
Joyce Meyer did the best thing when she published the book "Battlefield of the Mind" (Which is a great read by the way) because it is so so true.
I feel almost like I should re-live a 5th grade experience and write sentences on the board - but instead of writing "I will not talk in class", I'd write:
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
Maybe writing 200 or so would help me with my issue. Blah.
Well tonight, hubby and I will take belly pic #3, I hope to get them all posted tomorrow...I will let you be the judge - I think it's a bump, but all my books say it's still too early to see that.
Until tomorrow....
One more week left in the first trimester.
I go through good days and bad days. I have days where I'm so excited I can't stand it, and then others where I try to convince myself that this really is too good to be true. This morning was kind of blah. I still have more than 2 weeks to go until my next appointment, and I just sit and wonder if everything really will be ok until then. It's sad actually, I thrive off of the appointments - because it's my confirmation that everything is ok, and there really is still a baby inside of me. But between appointments it's just an all out battle.
Joyce Meyer did the best thing when she published the book "Battlefield of the Mind" (Which is a great read by the way) because it is so so true.
I feel almost like I should re-live a 5th grade experience and write sentences on the board - but instead of writing "I will not talk in class", I'd write:
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
"I am pregnant, and have a healthy living baby inside of me"
Maybe writing 200 or so would help me with my issue. Blah.
Well tonight, hubby and I will take belly pic #3, I hope to get them all posted tomorrow...I will let you be the judge - I think it's a bump, but all my books say it's still too early to see that.
Until tomorrow....
Friday, April 18, 2008
I really am pregnant
Well it's official...I've started a pregnancy blog - I guess that means this is for real! First, I decided to have a separate blog for this pregnancy because, while it is a huge part of my life...it is not 'my life'. And I know (because I've been there) that there are people in this world that may not be interested in reading every single minute detail of someones pregnancy. So, this exists mostly for my family and friends that I do not get to see and talk to day in and day out. I feel like it's a great way to involve them even if they are miles away. So....
Here are 5 random things:
1. As of today, I do not have to take a progesterone pill 3 times a day anymore! WOO HOO. It's a small orange pill that never fails to get stuck in my throat and I hate it!! Well I love it for it's purpose - but I am glad to know that my placenta is now doing that job. "Goodbye little orange pill, thank you for everything, but I will not miss you!"
2. My pants do not seem to want to button anymore.
3. Our baby is the size of a strawberry. how cute, my little strawberry!!!!
4. Hubby has been nothing but wonderful
5. I honestly do not care if we have a boy or a girl, there is a part of me that is drawn to the idea of a baby girl, but considering everything, we will be so blessed either way!
I am in my 11th week - and am nearing the end of a horrible cough/cold. The nausea has also seemed less noticeable this past week. Does that I mean I'm finally out of that stage?!?! Oh, I sure hope so. I told myself that as soon as I was over the 1st trimester misery hump (no more morning sickness), that I would be a new person. My plan for this new person is to:
1) start walking - and no I do not need a ridiculous work out plan, because I've never been the one to work out to begin with. Why kid myself into thinking that now is the time to become superwoman? Walking is sensible and something I can do anytime with or without hubby.
2) get a small tan - before the psychos jump in with criticism, I do not mean monthly tanning memberships and baby oil at the beach... I mean spending a little bit of time in the sun (with sunscreen) to overpower this pastiness that has somehow become me. It's just not flattering to who I am. If I was Gwen Stefani, and could pull that look off, then I'd be ok with it. But I'm not. And as someone else has said "tan chub is better than white chub"
3) stop using nausea as an excuse for fast food. I will admit that for the past 5 weeks, dealing with this consistent nausea has been crrrrazy, and really, the only thing that seems to help is highly processed foods, and foods with a lot of substance. Well I can only imagine what I will look like if that trend continues for the next 6 months. eeeeks. On the other extreme, I'm not a carrot stick and balsamic vinaigrette type person, never have been....but I can enjoy a good salad for lunch and have my hubby grill some chicken for dinner (with mac n cheese of course). So I guess what I want to have is more balance. Not a diet that revolves around combo #'s from various fast food chains. (Although a #5 from Chick fil A sounds good right now).
4) stay excited - this really is such an amazing time, and I've got to continue battling my fears of the past and move forward in the fact that there is a living miracle inside of me. We truly are fearfully and wonderfully made!
Here are 5 random things:
1. As of today, I do not have to take a progesterone pill 3 times a day anymore! WOO HOO. It's a small orange pill that never fails to get stuck in my throat and I hate it!! Well I love it for it's purpose - but I am glad to know that my placenta is now doing that job. "Goodbye little orange pill, thank you for everything, but I will not miss you!"
2. My pants do not seem to want to button anymore.
3. Our baby is the size of a strawberry. how cute, my little strawberry!!!!
4. Hubby has been nothing but wonderful
5. I honestly do not care if we have a boy or a girl, there is a part of me that is drawn to the idea of a baby girl, but considering everything, we will be so blessed either way!
I am in my 11th week - and am nearing the end of a horrible cough/cold. The nausea has also seemed less noticeable this past week. Does that I mean I'm finally out of that stage?!?! Oh, I sure hope so. I told myself that as soon as I was over the 1st trimester misery hump (no more morning sickness), that I would be a new person. My plan for this new person is to:
1) start walking - and no I do not need a ridiculous work out plan, because I've never been the one to work out to begin with. Why kid myself into thinking that now is the time to become superwoman? Walking is sensible and something I can do anytime with or without hubby.
2) get a small tan - before the psychos jump in with criticism, I do not mean monthly tanning memberships and baby oil at the beach... I mean spending a little bit of time in the sun (with sunscreen) to overpower this pastiness that has somehow become me. It's just not flattering to who I am. If I was Gwen Stefani, and could pull that look off, then I'd be ok with it. But I'm not. And as someone else has said "tan chub is better than white chub"
3) stop using nausea as an excuse for fast food. I will admit that for the past 5 weeks, dealing with this consistent nausea has been crrrrazy, and really, the only thing that seems to help is highly processed foods, and foods with a lot of substance. Well I can only imagine what I will look like if that trend continues for the next 6 months. eeeeks. On the other extreme, I'm not a carrot stick and balsamic vinaigrette type person, never have been....but I can enjoy a good salad for lunch and have my hubby grill some chicken for dinner (with mac n cheese of course). So I guess what I want to have is more balance. Not a diet that revolves around combo #'s from various fast food chains. (Although a #5 from Chick fil A sounds good right now).
4) stay excited - this really is such an amazing time, and I've got to continue battling my fears of the past and move forward in the fact that there is a living miracle inside of me. We truly are fearfully and wonderfully made!
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